I often find myself having a love/hate relationship with Facebook. This is not a new thing to hear, as you know, because I have talked about working hard to keep my personal page very positive and a place where my friends can go and not worry about all of the ills of the world. And I have made considerable effort in what I look at on Facebook so that my algorithm is full of things that are fun and happy. But the biggest thing that I both appreciate and despise is finding out from a post that someone I know and care about has died. Whether or not I have seen a person in a long time, it is still very jolting when that news randomly pops up on my feed.
Having gotten that out of the way, I learned earlier this week that my friend Frankie passed away the week before. I was stunned when I saw that on Facebook. I literally gasped. I had a physical and emotional response to that post and had to do some digging around to make sure that it was true. I met Frankie some 25 years ago. He became one of my bar buddies. A group of us would meet up whenever we went out, especially to The Palms. We would occupy one corner of the bar for the entire evening and drink and laugh. He had the best laugh.
News like this comes with the inevitable wave of emotions and self-reflection. Asking myself why I don't do better at keeping up with people. Why I let opportunities pass me by. All of these questions come at me at once and it can be overwhelming. This is another reason why I am working on living in the moment and being more present when it comes to life. While I realize that I cannot keep up with everything and everybody and I cannot do it all, I can definitely do better at being a real presence in people's lives. I will miss Frankie and am sad that I won't see him again on Earth, but I am using this episode of life to inspire myself to do better.
That is all.
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