The Round Silver Tray

 I do enjoy a nice piece of silver, and I have collected some really beautiful pieces over the years.  And I am not afraid of good silverplate pieces.  Most people gravitate towards sterling because it's more valuable but if I really like a piece, I don't care if it's plated or sterling.  I have also inherited some lovely pieces of silver as well. This round tray is one of the pieces that I got from Mom.  Technically, it belonged to Mom and Dad, but Dad doesn't really care about such things, so I always consider it to be Mom's.

This is a serving tray.  A round serving tray that is about 12 inches in diameter.  It has a lovely border on it that is about 1 inch deep all the way around with intricate gingerbread work.  It is not anything extremely fine, but it is something that is extremely special.  My parents met in 1966 when they both were teaching at Bethel High School.  Dad taught physical education and Mom taught English.  They both graduated from East Carolina University but were four years apart and so their paths did not cross until Bethel. 

They were married on July 28, 1968.  This tray was a wedding gift to them.  It was presented to them by the senior class at Bethel High School.  They had it engraved so that Mom and Dad would always remember them.  I think that's so special that the students came together to do something like that for two of their favorite teachers.  The tray sat in a cabinet for most of my childhood and like so many other pieces in that cabinet it was only for display.  I don't recall Mom ever using it.  You know me, though, I love to bring it out and use it when I entertain.  And even though polishing it is kind of a pain because of the gingerbread work, it's still beautiful to me.  

I think the next time I have people over, I need to use this tray.  Come on over and see! 

Recipe of the week - Cranberry Meatballs

 This is an easy recipe using frozen meatballs.  You could serve it as an appetizer or as a main dish.  I have used it as my main dish and served it with potatoes or rice.  I hope you will give this one a try!

Cranberry Meatballs

1 bag frozen meatballs

1 14oz can of whole cranberry sauce

1/4 cup Ketchup

1/4 cup hoisin sauce

2 Tbsp soy sauce

2 Tbsp frank's hot sauce

2 Tbsp red wine vinegar

1 tsp garlic powder

1/2 tsp ground ginger

2 Tbsp brown sugar

Place meatballs in your crock pot.  Mix all other ingredients together and pour over meatballs.  Cook on low for 4-5 hours.

Enjoy!!

Life without a list simply did not work for me.

 

Recently, I have spent several weeks listless.  As an adult, I have always been a list person.  It helps me organize and be productive.  Lots of people use lists to get things done.  But for some reason, I decided to not use a list to get through my week.  I thought that would make my life more carefree and spontaneous if I was not bogged down by my own to-do list.  I was wrong LOL In some ways, yes, it was nice to come home and not feel boxed in by a list of things to get accomplished.  But then I realized that I really was not getting anything done at all.  I just sat around like a sloth.  I felt far from carefree and spontaneous.

So, I am going back to my list system.  It works for me and I actually get things done.  I kept thinking that, as an adult, I should be able to remember all of the things that I need to do without writing them down.  That was so wrong.  I am so far behind on so many things that I may need to double the length of my daily list just in order to catch up. And you know what?  I'm so excited about it.  That is how my adult life goes.  I am excited about my to-do lists LOL  Ah, well. I have a daily planner that I use that really helps.  Each month has its own calendar and then daily pages because, you know, that's how daily planners work LOL I have certain things that I do each day of the week and it's so easy to transpose those chores from week to week when I'm writing them down.  I also don't overload my daily to-do list if I'm keeping track of it.  Makes me more productive.

As exciting as this is to all you know, and I know that it is, I am going to end this little insight into my life.  I am off from work today and so I need to go and check my list to see what needs to be done!  Ah, these crazy escapades in adulting.  

For All We Know - The Carpenters

 I've been thinking a lot about my friend Lorraine.  One week ago, her husband left this world.  They had 28 wonderful years together.  I was privileged to be in their wedding.  Theirs was a beautiful love story and my heart goes out to her.  We should all be so lucky in love. 

Sorting into piles

 

When I am going through things in each drawer, each cabinet and on each surface, I divide them into categories.  Keep, trash, donate, sell.  Obviously, the keep pile is the biggest.  I just can't help myself there, but I am getting better.  It's smaller than it was!  And if you know me, that is a pretty big deal. My sell pile is also really a form of the keep pile right now.  In the back of my mind, I still think I may have some kind of antiques/collectibles business sometime down the road, so I want to keep an inventory of some kind ready. But these are also items that I will give to any of my friends if they see something they like.  I keep a picture album on Facebook of such things.  No one's taken me up on that one yet but oh well!

The trash and donate piles can be tricky for me though.  Sometimes I wonder if I should donate items that are not perfect and need repair.  Or should I just trash them.  I watch a show on tv called Money For Nothing.  It's a British show where this woman goes to the dump and finds items being thrown out and repurposes them.  It's a pretty entertaining show and some of the things she and her artisans come up with are outstanding.  So, when I am looking at something that I think I need to just throw out, I will often stop myself and wonder if someone could do something with it. I keep hearing that little voice in my head saying one man's trash is another man's treasure.  Sometimes I want to mute that voice because it makes me think too hard LOL  And I end up donating because for one, it's true that someone may be able to do something with it.  And also, it won't end up in the landfill because I saw little value in it.  Oh, well.

Right now, I'm still in the kitchen working so most everything is in pretty good shape to put into piles.  I'll keep going and once I get a good donation pile going, I will take it to the appropriate place and let it go.  Every pile has its value and forcing myself to make decisions like this is a good thing.  It's not as easy as you see on all of those home improvement shows, but it can be done!

Today's Moment of Mindfulness

 

It's good to have an end in mind, but in the end what counts is how you travel. 

Sleeping In

 

Sleeping in is something that I apparently cannot do as an adult.  It does not seem to matter if I go to be at 9:00 p.m. or 1:00 a.m. I am going to be up before the sun.  Every day.  This is not a bad quality to have but at times it is frustrating.  Sleeping in has become a fantasy in my life.  It's never a reality unless I'm sick and I don't count that.  That is my body telling me that I'm on a different schedule because of some virus.  That kind of sleeping in is far from pleasurable.  I'll take it, because I need it, but it's not the same as just sleeping in.

As an adult, I have become a morning person.  I never saw that one coming as a teenager.  I can get a lot more done in the morning when I put my mind to it.  I am not always productive in the morning, but I know that the possibility is there.  Some mornings I'm just lazy LOL When Michael and I were together, I got up before he did and that morning time was like my sanctuary.  It was my alone time and I cherished that.  That is kind of when I first learned that I needed some alone time each day to focus on myself.  So, I got used to getting up early.  Now, that I am single, I really don't have that excuse, but I still get up early.  

Last night, I told myself that I was going to sleep in this morning.  I went to bed around 11:00 p.m.  I purposely did not set my alarm.  I turned on my radio instead and let it play all night.  I love those nights when I can let the radio play and have music in the background while I'm drifting in and out of sleep.  But then 6:15 a.m. comes around and BAM.  I am awake.  No alarm except for my body alarm.  And it's not the kind of awake that I can say I'll just roll back over and go back to sleep.  I am awake.  I even remind myself that I am off today and do not have to be anywhere this morning.  That held no influence this morning.  I went ahead and got up, made my coffee and here I am.

I am not complaining that I cannot sleep in intentionally anymore.  It is just disappointing sometimes because it feels like a luxury that escapes me. Ah, the joys of adulthood.

Christ United Methodist Church

 

I wonder if my ancestors would agree with this quote.  I hope that they would as that would be the Christian thing to do.  I'm not so sure though.  I grew up in a Baptist family and the further back I look into the family tree, the more Baptist they were.  Ah, well.  They were who they were, and I am who I am, and nothing will really change that. 

After searching for a long time, I am becoming a Methodist.  I began attending Christ United Methodist Church back at the beginning of June.  I absolutely love it.  Everyone there has been so nice and welcoming.  I enjoy the services and actually pay attention to the sermons.  I told one of the pastors that I've become someone who actually takes notes during the service.  And they have a good music program, which is important to me.  I used to feel that was a silly requirement for a church home, but I have come to realize how important that is to me. It is one of the ways I feel that I can serve in the church.  But I really love what this church stands for.  It is very community and service oriented.  They are out all the time helping with many community organizations.  And everyone is welcome at the table here. They really do seem to be guided by the teachings of Jesus.  Can't say that about many places of worship these days, sadly.

So, at the end of this month, I will officially be joining the church, and I am quite excited about that. While I think some past generations of my family may be rolling in their graves, I am happy with this decision.  It feels right.  And I'm taking Dolly's advice! 

Quote of the Week

 

A Bushel and a Peck - Faith Prince

 Stephanie and I went to see Guys and Dolls last night at UNCG.  It was so much fun.  My 4th time seeing the show onstage. The score is full of so many wonderful songs.  The cast did an impeccable job with the show.  Afterwards, we were discussing the film version.  A Bushel and a Peck is Miss Adelaide's first number.  This song was became very popular and was recorded by many artists yet was cut from the film.  Interesting. Here is Faith Prince and company from the 1992 Broadway Revival. 

The glass butter dish

 If you know me at all, you know that I love dishes.  I can't help it, I just do.  I give credit to Mom and Grandmother for that one.  Along with the love of antiques they instilled in me, a love of nice dishes goes along with that. And that goes hand in hand with entertaining.  I love to set the table, as you should have figured out by now LOL To me, that sets the mood for a meal.  The food just enhances that mood LOL

I have several sets of china.  I admit it.  I am addicted to it.  But I also really like to collect different serving pieces.  While it's fun to have the table laid out in one pattern, I like to add to that with different serving pieces.  This butter dish is one of them.  I found it at the Golden Antiques shop in Summerfield, NC.  It was one of those I just turned around and it was there experiences.  I have several different butter dishes, but I was drawn to this one for some reason.  I did not have a glass one yet. 

Glass butter dishes are not hard to find, and they range from reasonable to relatively expensive depending on the age, pattern and quality of the piece.  I love the fact that most antique glass butter dishes are round.  It's a reminder that people used to make their own butter and then mold it into shapes.  You don't often find round butter in the grocery store.  I don't think I've ever seen it actually.  Anyway, I was drawn to this particular one because of the simplicity of its design.  And most butter dishes are flat on the bottom, but this one has a small foot on the bottom. I love any dish that's footed, so that was a plus.  And it's versatile because it can go with all kinds of sets of china.  

While I haven't churned my own butter, I have made some herb butter which goes nicely in this dish.  Like most of what I buy, I love to use these kinds of things and look forward to having this on my table for years to come.

Recipe of the Week - Mazetti Casserole

 Apparently, this recipe (and its many versions) has been around for years. I have no idea how I missed it.  We didn't have it growing up and I don't recall anyone else serving it to me.  But when I saw this on an episode of Cooking with Meme on YouTube, I thought I would give it a try. I really did enjoy it.  It is not something I would want to make all the time, but every now and then it will be a good dish for Sunday Dinner!  If you have never tried it, let me know what you think.  If you have or have your own version, I would love to hear some of the different things you add to it.

Mazetti Casserole

12 oz package of egg noodles

2 lbs ground beef

1 lb ground pork or pork sausage

1 pepper, chopped

1 onion, chopped

1 Tbsp garlic powder

2 cups chopped celery

2 cans tomato soup

1 jar of sliced mushrooms

8 oz cheddar cheese

Preheat oven to 325.  Cook noodles as directed.  Drain and set aside.  Brown meet.  Drain.  Sauté vegetables in butter.  Add garlic powder.  Toss meat and vegetables together.  Add noodles.  Add soup and mushrooms.  Pour into casserole.  Top with cheese.  Bake uncovered for 1 hour. 

Enjoy!

One Drawer at a Time - Back into the kitchen

 One of the downsides of this process is that when I am working on one room, another room starts to get out of control.  This is not something to feel badly about, it is simply the reality of the process.  And that is happening to me.  While I have been working in my den going through everything, my kitchen is getting somewhat crazy.  I realized this the other day when I went to get a pair of tongs out of the drawer and had a hard time getting the drawer opened because it was so full.

The kitchen is an easy place just to stuff something in a drawer or cabinet because it's convenient in the moment.  That's where my issue is, I believe.  That and the fact that plastic containers seem to be able to multiply when no one is watching.  It is just starting to get out of control and I don't like that.  Overall, I am probably using my kitchen more than any other room in the house, so I need to have it organized better.  That is why I am going to ditch my original plan and get back into the kitchen.  It's the heart of my house, so once it is in good working order I believe everything else will fall into place more gracefully.  That is the plan, anyway.  We shall see.

You're a nice guy but...changing how I deal with rejection

 

Taking rejection personally is a natural emotion.  I hate it when people say, "don't take it personally".  How else is one supposed to take rejection?  Of course it's personal.  But it does not have to control how you handle rejection unless you let it.  That has been one of my biggest problems in any kind of relationship, be it a partner or a friend.  I have spent years believing that I was not good enough for something or someone.  Years of rejection will do that to a person.  And in the past, I have always let those feelings dictate whatever followed in my life.  Eventually life would even out, but until then I was fueled by the feelings of not being good enough.

I have been working on that very hard over the past few years.  I have not always been successful, but it is getting better. One of the reasons that I am single now and will be for the foreseeable future is because I do not want to put myself in realm of rejection right now.  Yes, I know that if I don't get out there and take a chance, I could be missing something.  You have to risk being hurt to find happiness.  Blah, blah, blah.  I have told myself that over and over and yet here I sit alone in my house.  

I read this quote today online and it struck a chord in me.  I realized that I have been giving others control of my self-perception.  I believed that no one would want me because one person didn't want me.  I know in my heart that is not true but it's something that is going to take a while to process and work through.  There isn't an overnight solution to these feelings.  But I know now that the person I am working on becoming will eventually be able to get back out there and see what or who I find. It is just not time for that yet. 

I am enjoying getting to know myself again.  I am enjoying the growth that has occurred over the last few years.  Well, not the growth as far as my stomach goes, but oh well.  The relationship that I am building with myself is going to be the foundation of any relationship, partner or friendship, going forward.  It is exciting to want to improve my life for myself and not because I think someone else is going to like me more because of it.  Yes, rejection sucks but it is a part of life and the bottom line for me is that I am learning to cope with it in a healthier, more productive way.

Organizing sheet music

 I often like to repurpose pieces in my house so that they are used to their full potential.  Then something happens that makes me want to use the piece for its intended purpose.  That is what I am working on right now.  Well, not really working on it but it's in the back of my mind as another project so we shall see how that goes!

As I have been going through boxes in the garage, consolidating and getting rid of things, I came across several boxes of music.  My piano music.  Not just mine, but music that belonged to generations before me.  Thumbing through that music brought back so many good memories.  I really miss sitting at a piano and playing.  It's so therapeutic for me that I think it would do me good to get back into it.  Now, to find a piano.  Anyway, I have a lot more sheet music than I anticipated.  My personal sheet music spans from my beginnings in piano playing circa 1980 up through college.  I stopped buying music for the piano after that simply because I didn't have anything to play it on.

I didn't have to throw much of it out, which was nice.  But I would recycle things that were incomplete.  I used to make lots of copies of music that I borrowed from others and there really is not a point in holding onto it if I don't have the completed piece.  Luckily, that was at a minimum.  So, what I need to do next is organize my music and start to catalog it.  You know I love a good inventory LOL  But going back to my original thought is my music cabinet.  I want to store my music in the cabinet like it should be stored.  Right now, the cabinet is full of linens.  I can eventually find another place for them so that I can make room for the music.  Once I did store records in there because the shelves are the perfect size for it.  But now they have their own home which works.

It really has been fun looking through the music.  There are all types of genres there.  Multiple hymnals.  Classical music, new age piano, showtunes.  I have several books of early 19th century popular songs that Mom and I used to sit at the piano and play and sing.  Music I played in church with Suzanne Jewell back in the days at FBC Monroe.  So many good memories.  Even the recital pieces I played.  I was never a fan of recitals, but I can look back on them fondly now. 

So, I am adding that project to my ever-growing list.  I think that if I have everything organized and where it should be, I may just get motivated enough to find a piano to start playing again.  We shall see. 

Murder By Cheesecake and Maybe Happy Ending

 I finally finished a book LOL  It only took me about 2 months this time, so I'm getting faster.  Maybe.  Oh, well.  Still, I got it done.  That makes it sound more like a chore than something for fun but I did actually enjoy it.  It was a mystery called Murder By Cheesecake.  It's a novel by Rachel Ekstrom Courage and based on the characters from The Golden Girls.  It appears that this will be a series of mysteries involving the four ladies.  I enjoyed it but I didn't love it.  The author tries very hard to put in references from the show and those parts really fell flat.  Timing was a key element of the tv show and sometimes that does not translate to the written form.  The author did best when she took those basic characteristics that we already knew and built upon them.  There were times that I laughed out loud from something creative she added.  I will probably read more in the series to see how thing evolve.

Last night, Marcia and I went to see Maybe Happy Ending at the Tanger Center.  I got tickets through their lottery system.  We were literally in the last row of the theater.  I really didn't mind that but do wish we had been a little closer.  No big deal.  But the show was utterly charming.  I knew nothing about it, which is always fun for me going to see a show.  It is the story of 2 retired robots who journey together to an island. One to find his former owner and the other to fulfill a dream.  Along the way, their friendship grows and becomes something deeper. I was very entertained and I recommend anyone seeing it when it comes by your area.

That's been about it for my fun list lately.  I have cooked some new recipes that I have enjoyed and will share them on my blog later on. I am hoping to go hear a concert Monday evening and then spend next weekend with Dad for his birthday.  The weekend after that I have a few days off so I am figuring out something fun to do.  I'll keep you posted!

Recipe of the Week - Jalapeño Chicken

 Sometimes I will look for a recipe based on what I've got on hand so that I can use it up and not waste it.  This recipe was one of those.  I had an open jar of sliced jalapenos in my fridge and some chicken in the freezer I wanted to use.  The internet search resulted in this recipe from Allrecipes.com.  I really enjoyed it and it was not too spicy for me so it will go into my recipe canon.  

Jalapeno chicken with garlic lime cabbage

Jalapeno Chicken

6-8 boneless chicken thighs

1 cup chicken broth

2 Tbsp Honey

Juice from 1 lime

1/4 cup minced jalapenos*

2 tsp cinnamon

2 tsp chili powder

2 tsp salt

1 tsp cumin

1 tsp black pepper

Mix broth, honey, lime juice and jalapenos over medium heat.  Cook down until thickened and syrupy.

Mix spices together.  Coat chicken in rub and arrange on a baking sheet.  Cook 15 minutes at 400.  Baste with broth mixture.  Cook 15 more minutes.  Baste again.  Cook 10-15 more minutes. 

*the original recipe called for 1/2 jalapeno minced.  I just guessed the translation into pre sliced jalapenos and this seemed to work well. 

Today's Moment of Mindfulness

 

Bring a sense of friendliness to your mistakes.  Be gentle and kind to yourself. 

Romans 12:18

 Easier said than done but if we all at least tried, things would be so much better for mankind.

Keeping an ideas notebook

 I am thinking that I want to start keeping a notebook of ideas for writing.  An actual notebook that I keep on hand with me at all times so that I can jot down story ideas.  I get ideas in my head all of the time and having a notebook with me to jot those ideas down will be helpful.  When I don't actually write it down, it gets stored in my brain and will pop back up in my memories from time to time but I believe that writing it down will motivated me to actually flesh out the story ideas. 

I have three different ideas that I am constantly thinking about for writings.  One is a cookbook.  People have been encouraging me to do that so that is a definite idea I want to explore.  I'm working on pieces based on where I work and the experiences that I have had in senior living.  And I'm working on creating a place of goodness. I think about the kind of place that I would ideally like to live in and have been figuring out the details of that.  Having a notebook to write down notes about each of those ideas would be helpful.

I don't want to keep notes on my phone.  While in some ways that would be helpful...the ease of technology and all that blah blah, I would rather go through the physical act of writing it down.  For one, my phone is old and doesn't really have the kind of room on it I would need for extensive note taking.  But also, if I write it down, I am more likely to build upon it.  I only say this because I know how I work and taking the time to write it out will be more beneficial.

So, I will find myself a notebook to keep near me all the time.  It may not turn out anything, but it can't hurt!

You're a nice guy but...taking control of how I spend my time

 

One of the nice things about being single is that I am in control of my time.  I am in control of my schedule and how I spend my time.  Honestly, that was never the case when I was with someone.  Part of that was due to social obligations and part of it was due to my expectations of myself withing the boundaries of that relationship.  And those are not bad things to have be a part of one's life.  Being in a relationship comes with certain expectations that need to be met in order to thrive as a couple. But I am no longer a part of a couple and so I need to remind myself that my time is my own.

That may sound like such an obvious statement.  In some ways, it is.  But you need to remember that I spent almost 15 years with a time schedule that relied on another person.  And when you are definitely the caregiver in the relationship, how you spend your time becomes less and less about you and more about the other person and the two of you as a couple.  Again, there's nothing inherently wrong with that and honestly, I enjoyed that aspect of my relationships over the years. Now that I am not in a relationship, I am discovering that being in control of how I spend my time is a wonderful form of self-care.

It has taken me several years to get to the point that I can do what I want when I want.  As you have heard me talk about before, I have been a list person for most of my adult life.  It works for me.  But within the confines of a relationship, those lists became the guiding factor of every day of my life.  If I drifted away from the list, I felt lost because I feared it would negatively affect my relationship. So, I never did that.  I stuck to the routine. I stuck to the lists that defined my contributions to my relationship.  And I have since realized that this was not the healthiest thing to do.  

Now I am in a relationship with myself and learning to take back control of my own time has been pretty eye opening.  Relearning that I can spend my time exactly as I want to have made me much more relaxed in many ways.  Yes, there are times that I do make a list these days because there are things that I need to get done and putting them in list form is now a reminder of those things and not a rigid schedule.  I can appreciate that much more now. This past week, I have come home from work and asked myself each day what I wanted to do.  Some nights I cooked, some nights I just sat and watched tv.  I did not feel like I needed to constantly be doing something productive to show my worth to myself.  My worth is coming from doing what I want to, when I want to.

It's a good feeling. 

It's Never That Easy/I've Been Here Before - Closer Than Ever

 I have not thought about this duet for a long time but it popped into my brain earlier today.  Closer Than Ever is a great revue with a lot of fantastic music in it.  I used this song as the finale in the first revue I directed in college. Oh, those were the days!

The Outer Banks, 1776 and handbells

 In some ways, life has been pretty quiet around here.  No surprises there, I am sure!  But that is fine.  I like the quiet most days.  Still, I am trying to get out and do things for fun and last week was a good one for me.  I went to the Outer Banks for a few days, I got to see a friend in a show, and I joined a handbell choir.  All in all, not bad!

Every year at work, Gina, our Life Enrichment director, will take some residents to the beach for a few days.  This year, they went to the Outer Banks.  She asked me to go this year to help out in the kitchen and do some cooking.  No one on our kitchen staff at work was able to go because staff is tight right now with several people out.  I was more than happy to go on a paid vacation for a few days.  I had wanted to get to the beach this year anyway and this was the perfect opportunity.  

We had an absolutely wonderful time.  The residents that were on the trip were so incredibly relaxed and chilled out.  They were not demanding at all and very much went with the flow.  We all enjoyed being in each other's company and doing some good sightseeing.  Being at the coast is so relaxing for me.  I could just sit and look at the water for hours.  We were on the sound side of the Outer Banks and it was just beautiful.  And at night, the stars were amazing.  I am so glad that I went and cannot wait to do it again next year.

On Sunday, Marcia and I met in Sanford to see our friend Steve in Temple Theatre's production of 1776.  That was just delightful.  I had not seen the show on stage before, only the movie which I also enjoyed.  I did not remember the movie being that funny, but the stage show was.  And the music was great.  There was one cast member I did not care for.  Her acting was great, but her vocals were not right for the part she cast herself in.  Steve played Ben Franklin and did an awesome job. It was so good to see him onstage again.  We were able to go out after the show and visit some and have a good meal together.  A fun afternoon. 

Monday evening, I started handbell rehearsal.  I joined one of the choirs at church. I was nervous at first because I had not played in several years and the choir I joined is the more advanced of the two choirs.  But the group was very welcoming, and I had a good time.  I did pretty good overall and no one seemed to notice when I messed up.  I wasn't the only one so that was good.  We rang through four different pieces, and it was so much fun for me.  This group is going to be a lot of fun.  They very much remind me of the group I rang with at FBC in Monroe when I was in high school.  I can tell I am really going to enjoy this group.

It's fun to get out and do things.  Let's hope that continues.  Just let me know if you want to join in!

Recipe of the Week - Loaded Corn Casserole

Loaded corn casserole with baked beans and pork ribs

 I was on vacation with work last week, so I did not write on my blog at all.  Sorry about that for those of you that actually follow the blog!  So, I thought I would start this week off with a recipe that I tried recently and absolutely loved.  It's from Allrecipes.com.  I saw it on one of their YouTube videos and wanted to try it.  I think it's delicious and so did everyone who I shared it with.  I hope you will enjoy it as well!  If you like corn, I definitely think you will enjoy this.

Loaded Corn Casserole

6 strips of bacon, diced

1 stick of butter

1 can of creamed corn

1 can of corn, drained

1 box of cornbread mix

1 cup of sour cream

2 cups shredded cheddar

3 green onions, sliced

1 tsp Cajun seasoning

1 egg

Fry diced bacon.  Melt the stick of butter and pour into a mixing bowl.  Drain bacon and add 1 Tbsp of bacon grease to the butter.  Stir in all other ingredients then add bacon to the mixture.  Stir to combine.  Pour into a 9x13 casserole dish.  Cook at 350 for 40 minutes. 

Enjoy!

Quote of the Week

 

This says it all 💚

It's time to do some packing....but not necessarily the packing you think I'm talking about.

 When I was a theatre major way back when, one of the tools we used for character development was called packing.  One of my professors, John Gulley, was huge into packing.  This is where you take the character that you are given in a script and create a whole person from that.  Yes, you know the basics of who the character is but in order to connect more personally with the character, you create his history.  You create the story from where the character came from.  What made him who he is today.  You give the character qualities based on the history that you create.  And this all has to be supported by the text.  For instance, I could not say that Romeo was an alien life form coming to earth to discover the secrets of teenage love because that is not what Shakespeare has written.  But I could create past experiences Romeo has had because of the Capulet/Montague feud that have affected his life and help him to become the young man that he is at the start of the play. That's packing.  When I had my first big role in theatre at UNCG, I knew every aspect of the character.  I had created a backstory that made sense and fit who Doug was.  It was fun and added layers to my performance.

That is what I want to do with my life in a way.  Not completely though because I will not be making up my history because it is already there.  But I do need to use my personal history to lay the foundations of my future self.  It's not like that is not already in progress every day.  Our pasts shape our lives.  I just want to recognize it more.  I think about the events in my life that have truly shaped who I am today and I want to use those experiences in a positive way to create a better version of myself.  I think about the kind of person I am striving to be, the qualities I want to see in myself that I have not really attained yet and use the packing tool to give me goals to fill in those gaps.  Of course I would love for others to see those qualities too, but my main goal is for me.  It may sound silly to think of oneself as a character in a play, but it makes sense in my mind.  

This is all about becoming a better version of myself.  It is not that I believe I am currently a bad version of myself.  Not at all.  I am liking myself more and more every day.  I am enjoying spending time with myself.  I just want to live my best life possible.  When changes happen, both good and bad, I will be in a more complete place to roll with the punches and use those changes to be the person I want to be.  We shall see how it goes. 

Still in the bedroom

 

I will admit that I have gotten away from my one drawer at a time project this summer.  I simply had other things I needed to get done but I also decided to slow some things down in my life.  As much as I love checking items off of lists, it got to the point that it was weighing me down some.  I was not taking time after work to just relax and let myself chill.  I had to come home and keep going so that I would be productive.  Some days that worked, but other days it did not. And this project is one of the things that got put on the back burner once I realized that I needed to take better care of myself each day. So this month, my goal is to pick up where I left off and keep going one drawer at a time.

The last thing I worked on was in my bedroom.  I lumped my clothes together because they are in different spaces throughout my bedroom and I got rid of everything that I could no longer wear.  It was more than I anticipated it would be but it gave me some good new space.  And I have not filled up those spaces with more new clothes.  I'm happy with what I have and will wear it until it's either worn out or I cannot wear it anymore. Hopefully the latter will be because the clothes are too big and not too small LOL So I will continue to work in my bedroom for the moment.  

I recently rearranged the furniture in there because I needed a change. I absolutely love how it turned out and it has definitely given me more floor space.  The room feels bigger. When I moved the bed, I found several containers of items that belonged to Michael.  I put them out in the garage with a few of his other things.  And I saw that there are still several containers under the bed that need to be gone through.  That will be my next few things to do with this project.  Hopefully I will find some fun things I had forgotten about and also things to let go of.  We shall see!!

Today's Moment of Mindfulness

 

Allow the telephone to ring three times before you reply, so that you can become aware of your breath and speak form a centered and calm space. 

Movies of Tim and Dolly

 The entire world felt the loss of Dolly Parton earlier this week.  While these things are inevitable, there was still no preparing for it.  She was an amazing artist and an even greater person.  And then the next day we lost Tim Curry.  He's a personal favorite of mine simply because of my obsession with Clue.  There have been many lists posted this week about Dolly and Tim, and it got me to thinking of the films that they made that I have not seen yet.  I will have to add these to my Friday Night Movie nights!

1. Passed Away 

2. Legend 

3. Three Men in a Boat

4. The Best Little Whorehouse in Texas 

5. Ferngully; The Last Rainforest 

6. Unlikely Angel 

7. The Hunt for Red October 

8. Smoky Mountain Christmas 

9. Straight Talk 

10. Christmas On the Square

Today's Moment of Mindfulness

 

True meditation is constant awareness, constant pliability, and clear discernment. 

Recipe of the Week - Meatball Sub Casserole

 This is a recipe from Allrecipes.com. I was watching one of their YouTube videos on easy casseroles because you know I love a good casserole. This was one of them and so I thought I would try it.  And let me tell you it is good!!!  I have made it twice in the past few months and have thoroughly enjoyed it.  Those that I have shared it with also liked it so it's not just me LOL  It's easy and delicious.  I hope you will give it a try because I really think you'll like it!

Meatball Sub Casserole

1 loaf of frozen garlic bread, cooked and cubed

1 bag frozen Meatballs

2 jars marinara

1 chopped onion

Shredded Mozzarella

Grated Parmesan

Sauté onions.  Add meatballs and marinara and heat through.  Layer casserole dish with garlic bread.  Sprinkle both cheeses on top.  Distribute meatballs and sauce over bread.  Top with rest of cheese.  Bake at 350 for 20-25 minutes.

*I also like to add cooked mushrooms to mine.

** I have also used Texas toast in place of garlic bread and it works well, too.  I prefer the garlic bread but it's still good!

It's not enough

 Do you ever have those moments when you just stop and look around and think to yourself "This is no longer enough"?  And I don't mean enough like enough stuff.  I have enough stuff.  I'm talking more about the quality of what you have going on in your life.  Or is it just me?  I seem to be having those moments more and more lately.  While there are portions of my life that are being built up to a level that I am grateful for, there are many things that I have become disillusioned with.  I hate to say that, but it's true. 

Some days, getting up and getting ready for work is very hard.  Today is one of those days.  It's not because I don't enjoy my job.  It's because I believe I can do so much more.  Anyone can do what I do at work and at the end of the day if I was not there, it would not make a huge difference.  Now, I'm sure some of the people that I work with may disagree with that, but that's the feeling I keep getting.  And that's not a good way to spend the majority of my day.  

Today, I know that I am feeling this way because of the loss of a great icon who was one of the best humanitarians to grace this planet.  I think about the difference she made in so many lives.  Not that I could ever be on that level, but it would be nice to feel like I had a purpose. Not that I don't have a purpose, really, but I am ready to make more of a difference in life than I do.  I am not sure where these feelings will take me today, if anywhere.  What I do know is that if I do not do anything about these feelings, I will let them overtake my existence and that's not good.  I will begin to overcompensate and from experience I know that will end badly for me.  

I will figure it out.  I'm not sure what is in store, but I plan on taking these feelings and making something productive and constructive out of them.  I want to make a difference.  Not only for others but for myself.  That is all. 

Dolly

Yesterday, we lost one of the greatest artists and humanitarians that the world has ever known.  Dolly Parton passes away at the age of 80, leaving behind an incredible legacy of music, movies, and good deeds. I think that many of us will remember where we were when we heard the news.  She was just that important.  She was that constant of good in life that so many aspired to. 

Dolly has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember.  In the very early 80s, I remember watching her London concert on HBO. That's what got me hooked.  And I remember getting so upset that I could not go see 9 to 5 in the movie theater.  I was like 6 after all, so it was not appropriate, but I still threw a tantrum about it.  Years later, when I finally saw it, I understood why I should not have gone to the theater.  Still, it has become a favorite.  And the music.  Islands in the Stream, I Will Always Love You, Hard Candy Christmas and my favorite, Coat of Many Colors.  Her Christmas specials, especially the one with Kenny Rogers.  Steel Magnolias and Straight Talk.  Dollywood.  Her books for children program.  Everything she did touched so many lives.

I am glad that I lived during a time when Dolly was on earth.  She will be missed by many.  Irreplaceable and unforgettable.  Thank you, Dolly. 

Some days you just have to run the red light

 

I am a very cautious driver.  I always have been.  I have not gotten a speeding ticket yet in my life even though I do drive over the limit sometimes.  I have only been in one accident and that was not my fault.  I was driving a company car when someone pulled out and rammed into me.  That was fun years ago! I am also a huge stickler when it comes to traffic laws.  There are few things that irritate me more than when people just do not obey the traffic laws simply because they don't think the laws pertain to them.  I will lay on my horn whenever I see someone turning right at a "no right on red" stop.  Drives me crazy.  If I am on a two-lane road, I will make sure that I am over just far enough so that cars behind me cannot use the bike lane as a turning lane. If I am making a right turn off of a three-lane road, I will make it a wide right turn if I can tell that the car behind me is going to use the center lane to pass me on the left.  I have gotten the finger more than once from that one.  I just smile and keep going.

However, yesterday I did something I never dreamt I would ever do. I ran a red light.  I got so irritated at this light that would not turn I could not take it anymore.  I looked at the cross traffic, and no one was coming so I floored it through the intersection.  I was on my way to work and not about to be late because the light trigger was not working.  I was at an intersection that, during the day, is very busy.  At 6:45 on a Sunday morning, not so much. I was waiting at the red light.  There was no one coming in my opposite direction but there were cars on the intersecting street. I have sat at this light in the early morning before when the trigger does not work on my side, but the light will turn green if someone approaches the intersection coming towards me.  So, I sat and sat. Both left turn lights on the intersecting street went green twice while my light stayed red.  There were cars behind me, but our light would not turn at all.  

Finally, I said to myself "screw this" and I just went for it.  I made sure no one was coming and I blew across the intersection.  With my luck, there would have been a cop nearby but thank goodness there was not one.  And I made it to work with time to spare.  I don't do things like this in traffic, but I got so angry knowing that I was going to sit there for a long time.  I just couldn't take it anymore and I went for it.  I'm not ashamed and I would do it again if I needed to.  I do wonder, though, how long the cars behind me waited at that light.  Oh well.