note to self

What upset you yesterday does not matter today.  It is fine to get upset at something trivial.  That happens, it is called being human.  Even better is the ability to get upset, let it go and move on.  Today you have achieved that, so enjoy the rest of your day, Bob :)

thought for the day - social media drama

We all do things wrong sometimes.  We all fuck up situations or friendships unintentionally, and sometimes subconsciously.  Sometimes i do speak without thinking.  Sometimes plans don't work out as they should.  That is life.  You learn from it and you move on.  But, if no one tells you the problem, how can you know there is one?  i, personally, do a lot better when someone confronts me with something.  That way, i can learn from my mistakes.  Yes, i make mistakes and i repeat mistakes.  Many times i do not realize that i do it.  The reasons behind that kind of behavior, depending on the circumstances, can go very deep with me. Oh well.

So, on that note, it really was bizarre to log onto Facebook this morning and read a message from a longtime online friend.  Several weeks ago, we had a conversation about one of my Youtube pages.  i have several for different kinds of interests.  This one was about boxing, as there are many great vids on Youtube.  He had told me he enjoyed and had subscribed to it.  Great!  This morning, his message to me was "I take back what I said about your Youtube.  I don't like some of the vids you have on there so I unsubscribed."  My response was "whatever" because, honestly, i don't care who subscribes or not, it's vids that i enjoy watching.  And then, realizing how out of the blue this message was, i checked his Facebook page to see that he had unfriended me.  I apologized for whatever I had done to offend him and wished him luck.  He told me what I could do with that.  Oh well.  I'm more upset over it because I don't know why this happened.  We have been online friends on various sites for at least 15 years.  If he had needed to call my attention to something I had done, I would have listened.  Whether or not the end result would have been different.  And i have kept my feelings to myself about some of the things he does, because it is not my place. But, I suppose I will never know.  It's sad to lose an online presence that i have enjoyed for so long, but i can do, and will do, no more about it.

Which also leads me to something else about my online life.  It is time for me to let go of most of it.  The different profile websites, etc.  It is a fantasy world that is becoming too much of my social reality.  Having said that, there's nothing wrong with fantasy, i just need to step away from it for awhile.  So far, i have deleted almost half of those pages out there and will hopefully get most of them done later today.  It has given me quite the sense of relief not to be a slave to them.  This is all in an attempt to get myself back into the real world and be an actual human being again.  We shall see.

Note to self

You've had two pretty good days of working towards your goals.  Keep going in that direction.  It is ok to look back and learn, just don't turn around and start walking back that way.  You got this!  That is all :)

Note to self

The only way you can begin to conquer your addictions is to change your environment.  Stop giving yourself access to that which you do not need.  In your mind and heart, you know it isn't healthy.  You are in control of this and you are the only one who can change it.  That does not mean you have to do it alone as there is nothing wrong in asking for help.  Now, finding someone you feel comfortable enough to ask for help is a different story.  If someone has never been addicted to anything, and addiction comes in all kinds of forms, they will not understand.  That's ok too.  Sometimes just lending an ear is a help.  You got this.

My top 10 favorite moments from Disney animation

It seems like ever since our trip to Disney World, not a day goes by that Disney is not on my brain in one way or another.  i need to live there LOL  Here are my top 10 favorite moments from Disney animated movies.  Of course, there are many wonderful moments, so it was hard to pick.  Enjoy!

10.  Lady and the Tramp - Bella Notte

Just a sweet scene from this movie.  And a beautiful song, culminating in one of the most romantic moments in film history.

9.  The Little Mermaid - Under The Sea

This number is so fun for me.  Catchy, Oscar winning tune, and great animation.

8.  Prince Ali - Aladdin

Honestly, the 2 lines by the parade commentators make me laugh out loud every time!

7.  Sleeping Beauty - The Curse

Ah, the first real entrance of Maleficent.  She's stunningly beautiful and evil at the same time.  Captivating!

6.  The Sword In The Stone - Wizard's Duel

I think this is such an underrated movie that didn't really get its due.  This is some Disney animation at its finest!

5.  Cinderella - Transformation

Of course, this was my favorite fairy tale growing up, and in many ways, still is.  My favorite moment from this classic.

4.  Fantasia - Dance of the Hours, Hippos

I love the entire Dance of the Hours portion of Fantasia, but the dancing hippos are by far my favorites!

3.  Lion King - Circle of Life

As a whole, i did not care for The Lion King.  But, i do think that the opening sequence is one of the best pieces of Disney animation ever!

2.  Be Our Guest - Beauty and the Beast

i remember seeing this on the big screen and being floored by this number.  So much fun!

1.  Baby Mine - Dumbo 1941

This one kills me every time.  Kleenex, anyone?

Thought for the day

Today, when i woke up, i knew i was not going to have much ability to function.  i don't know why or how i knew, i just did.  It is taking every ounce of energy i have just to be.  Period.  i hate these days.  i have so many things i need to be doing and i cannot make myself do any of them right now.  No motivation at all.  i get tired so easily.  i wish there were people in my life.  Not just acquaintances or online friends or true friends that i only keep up with online because they're not around anymore.  It is hard to explain.  i feel isolated and depressed today, which sucks because it is a beautiful day and i really do not want to waste it. Oh well.  This too shall pass....i hope.

Recipe of the week - King Ranch Chicken

This is a recipe that i copied from Mom years ago.  i am not sure, but i honestly think my brother gave it to her.  i don't remember her making, which doesn't mean that she didn't, i just don't remember.  Anyway, i made it for Michael and me about a month ago and we both really enjoyed it!  Hope you do as well!

1 (3.5-4 lb) boiler/fryer, cut up
1 10 oz pkg corn tortillas, cut into quarters
1 large onion, thinly sliced or chopped
1 large green pepper, chopped
2 cups shredded cheddar cheese
1 & 1/2 tsp chili powder
1/2 tsp garlic salt
1 10.75 oz can condensed cream of chicken soup, undiluted
1 10.75 oz can cream of mushroom soup, undiluted
1 10 oz can diced tomatoes and green chiles, undrained

Cook chicken in boiling water for cover 45 minutes or until tender.
Remove chicken, reserving 3 cups of broth in dutch oven.  Let chicken cool.  Skin, bone and cut into bitesize pieces.  Set aside.
Bring reserved broth to a boil.  Dip tortillas in broth 5 seconds to soften.  Set aside.
Place half of tortillas in a lightly greased 13x9x2" baking dish.  Layer with half each of chicken, onion and green pepper.  Repeat layers.
Sprinkle top with cheese, chili powder and garlic salt.
Combine soups and spread over cheese.  Top with tomatoes. (Mixture will be wet on top)
Bake at 350 for 45 minutes or until thoroughly heated.  Serves 6 to 8.

Instead of a fryer, i just used 4 lbs of boneless breasts and they worked out great!