a very nice weekend

This weekend was just what i needed.  Got do relax alot and do somethings i hadn't done in a long time.  Yesterday, after the estate sale, i went to the gym and worked out.  After the month i had, it was nice to let some stress go with some good boxing training.  Punching is always a good release LOL

Then, i had to return a van to work, so after Michael came and picked me up, we went and did our early voting duty.  I really like the early voting thing because i know it's done and i don't have to stress over lines come election day.  Then we met some friends for dinner at Zali's Mongolian Grill.  It was both our first times going there.  We loved it.  I'd never been to one before and the food was excellent.  We will definitely go back there again.  Any takers?  ;)

Michael went with our friends to some haunted house/woods of terror kind of thing.  That's not really my cup of tea so i came home and watched a movie on Netflix with Squirt. And interesting B movie from the golden age of Hollywood called "The Search For Bridey Murphy"  It was actually an interesting story about past life regression starring Teresa Wright.  Based on an actual case, alot of the dialogue came from transcripts of actual events.  I enjoyed it and Squirt did too, when he wasn't under the blanket staying warm.

Then the boys came and picked me up and we headed out to Warehouse 29 for their Halloween festivities.  Michael and I rarely go out anymore, opting to spend our time at home and on the porch hanging out.  But it ended up being a great time and I saw lots of people I hadn't seen in a very long long time.  I have to admit I do not miss working there, but it's a fun place to visit from time to time!

Today, we both got massages so we'll be sore as hell tomorrow.  I got to run some errands and now we're going to head next door for dinner with our dear friend, Lois.  It's been a great weekend!

Saturday morning

Oh well, the estate sale i went to this morning was a bust.  Seems like they'd posted old pictures in their advertising and everything i was interested in was sold in the first sale they had a few weeks ago.  It's fine though.  I was glad i went.  I enjoy things like that and need to do more of them.

Another fall day here.  Doesn't look like the sun will be coming out.  Oh joy LOL  Gonna work out later this morning, but in the meantime i'm enjoying my coffee.

first day off

Today was my first day off since September 29th and it turned out to be a very nice day.  I almost didn't take it though.  Michael had to work today and I, honestly, was afraid of being here in the house by myself.  Not having a car at the moment, I tend to feel trapped when I'm here by myself.  Even though, chances are if I had a car I would've stayed home anyway, not having the option is very frustrating at times.

I did manage to get out of the house some.  Took Squirt for several walks.  He didn't like to stay out too long cause it's getting colder and so that made the walks shorter than normal. Also got to have lunch with Charles and Jared, which was nice.  I hadn't seen Jared in a while and since Charles just had some minor surgery, I'm glad it worked out that we could all get together.

The rest of the day I didn't do too much and I'm totally fine with that.  Actually, the highlight of my morning was polishing some silver.  That may sound odd as being a highlight, but for me it was.  That's something that I usually only do when I want things to look nice.  That means I'm feeling better, which is definitely a good thing for all concerned hehe.  I have alot of memories of doing things like polishing silver and other domestic things I did with my Grandmother, so I hold those things dear.  I'm glad I felt like doing it today!

time off social media

over the last 24 hours, i decided i needed to take some time away from social media sites and chat sites.  i feel like i was spreading myself very thing, trying to keep up with everything and everyone and that's near impossible to do.  Facebook, although a good tool for keeping up with people that are far away, does still have it's frustrations.  A lot of times, as i've stated before, people try to be cute and funny when responding to posts when they have no freakin clue as to the tone of the post.  The joke is more important to them than the substance of what is being said.

And also, i very easily get sucked into online life.  i don't have a phone that has internet on it, so when i put something on a website, i'm actually physically sitting at the computer.  And sometimes i'll look up and 4 hours have passed.  i live behind profiles that make me out to be something i'm not right now.  maybe they're things i wish i was or hope to be one day, but right now it's not the case.

So, i did delete alot of profiles.  i kept a few but updated to let people know that i'm just taking time off and will be back every now and then to check on things.  It's not that i don't care what's going on in peoples' lives, i just need to focus on the reality of my own.

Anyway, it feels like a great weight has been lifted from my shoulders.  i've done a 180 from where i was this time last night.  Normally, when Michael has a late night, i dread being home alone.  i usually get very depressed and lonely and i'm proud to say that didn't happen tonight.  i got up off my ass and did some straightening up.  did some cleaning.  and since noone was around, i did ALOT of singing!!  That's something i don't hardly every do, but it just happened so i let the notes flow hehe

Now, let's see what tomorrow holds!  Woohoo!

frustration with Facebook

I've had alot of frustration with people on Facebook lately.  I do realize that it's not anyone's fault but my own because i'm overly sensitive.  I know that alot of friends on there don't follow my every post and don't understand that tones that i'm using when i say things.  They make jokes and "witty" comments on my posts to be cute and funny and i get upset over it.  I usually end up deleting the post all together.  So I've decided not to post much on there anymore and use this venue to express myself.  It's safe cause noone reads it anyway LOL

change again

I talk about change alot. So far, though, that's all it is....talk. It's been a hard week for me at work. Lots of ups and downs that filtered into my mental state at home. Thursday especially was bad and I wish I could pinpoint a reason as to why. I just simply woke up depressed. And all those commercials you see about depression are correct, it does physically exhaust you. But, I eventually did snap out of it and resurface, which is good.

However, I know that it really is time to stop talking and start doing. I have/had this list of goals for 2011 that really hasn't been touched. I must go back to it and reexamine it and update what is realistic and what is not. I do know that the first thing will be the hardest. I have to learn to live without my vices. It's going to be tough, probably the hardest fight of my life. I am going to do it.

Starbursts, bridge and Dad

I bought a bag of Starbursts last month. I was in Target and they simply called to me. There was a big mountain of bags of Starbursts. I hadn't had one in years, but I thought what the hell.

Growing up, Starbursts were big treats. We didn't get a whole lot of candy growing up. Candy in those days was a reward or a special treat and not something to be expected on a daily basis. The thing I remember most about Starbursts is my Mom's bridge club.

When I was still pretty young, Mom belonged to a bridge club. Actually she belonged to several of them, some along with Dad. But there was one she was in that was all women. I cannot remember if they met once a week or once every two weeks, but that's beside the point. There were at least two tables of players, maybe three. Again, can't exactly remember lol. Always one table in the living room and one or two in the den. Dad would have to bring chairs home from the office for her to use. They were these great bright orange plastic chairs, which were actually pretty comfortable. I always got to help carry them in, but at my age then I'd get one maybe two into the house and Dad and Bill would've gotten the rest!

Anyway, on those bridge nights, the hostess would always provide snacks for the ladies to eat during the game and dessert once the games were finished. This was the part I love. Mom had the great wooden salad bowls so popular in the 70's. Each table would get two bowls of snacks and candies. Nuts, mints, those mini Hershey bar varieties and, of course, Starbursts.

Those would be the nights that Dad would keep me and Bill. We'd get to camp out in their bedroom. Dad would play games with us and read to us. We had one of those small black and white tv's back there with the antennas that Dad would adjust and adjust to get one of the four local stations to come in. And Mom would fix all of us our own bowl of snacks. Starbursts were my favorites and there always seemed to be some of each color in my bowl. Yum!

It's just a cherished memory for me. I look back now and getting to spend that time with my Dad was an amazing thing. Lots of kids, then and now, don't get that kind of attention from either parent, much less both like Bill and I did. Now that I'm older and have to be an adult and work and all that other crap adults have to do, I'm very glad when my schedule frees up and I get to spend time with my Dad. I love him very much. Him and Starbursts. Especially the yellow ones!