Sunday, October 9, 2011

change again

I talk about change alot. So far, though, that's all it is....talk. It's been a hard week for me at work. Lots of ups and downs that filtered into my mental state at home. Thursday especially was bad and I wish I could pinpoint a reason as to why. I just simply woke up depressed. And all those commercials you see about depression are correct, it does physically exhaust you. But, I eventually did snap out of it and resurface, which is good.

However, I know that it really is time to stop talking and start doing. I have/had this list of goals for 2011 that really hasn't been touched. I must go back to it and reexamine it and update what is realistic and what is not. I do know that the first thing will be the hardest. I have to learn to live without my vices. It's going to be tough, probably the hardest fight of my life. I am going to do it.