Well, it's been a month since i lost my job. On one hand, it feels like time has flown by. On the other hand, it feels like time is dragging lol Some days good, some bad. i feel like i've been in mourning in some ways, and in some ways i suppose i have. Disbelief, anger, bitterness, depression...i've experience all of them over the last month, but then what else is new with me LOL
But, i have survived the month and will continue to survive. i'm slowly giving up a few things, one at a time, because it will make my life healthier and also be cheaper. i'm not saying what those things are because that will set me up to fail....i know myself and this is how i do it LOL This will work best for me. But, so far so good.
i have a game plan now, though. i'm seriously considering going back to school and getting a degree. i didn't get one the first time around and now i have the opportunity, so keep your fingers crossed! And, if that doesn't pan out just yet, that's ok. i will find something else to occupy my time for sure. Oh well.
That's all for right now.
Cheers
Monday, June 30, 2014
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Day 18
Last night was bad
For the first time since being let go from my job, i got very depressed. Luckily, i came back to the surface before falling asleep, but not before driving my husband bat shit crazy. Oh well. It made me determined that today is going to be better.
i've decided to put myself through some, for lack of a better word, detox. i'm going to give up several of my vices....some permanently, some temporarily. What those vices are do not matter to anyone but myself. From a financial, physical and emotional standpoint, it is something i MUST do. And i am looking forward to the challenge of it all.
Having said that, to the few people who read this (lol), i'm going to need some supervision or what i'd like to call Bobsitting. For awhile, anyway, i can't be left to my own resources. If you're not an addict, you may not understand this. i used to think that addict was a bad word...now i know it's just an adjective, albeit a heavy one. i have a very addictive personality and i come by in naturally. Luckily, i never did get addicted to anything illegal, but still, i have my addictions. Now it's time to conquer those and let some newer, healthier addictions take their places in my life. We'll see how it goes. Anyway, back to Bobsitting. i need to surround myself with people while i'm not job searching. During the day, at night, whatever. i'm not really driving much these days so that i can save on gas for my new car. But, if anyone has some time, come hang out, play games, listen to records, watch a movie, etc. i could use the support!
Well, that's how i'm feeling today. Wish me luck!
For the first time since being let go from my job, i got very depressed. Luckily, i came back to the surface before falling asleep, but not before driving my husband bat shit crazy. Oh well. It made me determined that today is going to be better.
i've decided to put myself through some, for lack of a better word, detox. i'm going to give up several of my vices....some permanently, some temporarily. What those vices are do not matter to anyone but myself. From a financial, physical and emotional standpoint, it is something i MUST do. And i am looking forward to the challenge of it all.
Having said that, to the few people who read this (lol), i'm going to need some supervision or what i'd like to call Bobsitting. For awhile, anyway, i can't be left to my own resources. If you're not an addict, you may not understand this. i used to think that addict was a bad word...now i know it's just an adjective, albeit a heavy one. i have a very addictive personality and i come by in naturally. Luckily, i never did get addicted to anything illegal, but still, i have my addictions. Now it's time to conquer those and let some newer, healthier addictions take their places in my life. We'll see how it goes. Anyway, back to Bobsitting. i need to surround myself with people while i'm not job searching. During the day, at night, whatever. i'm not really driving much these days so that i can save on gas for my new car. But, if anyone has some time, come hang out, play games, listen to records, watch a movie, etc. i could use the support!
Well, that's how i'm feeling today. Wish me luck!
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
Day 17
i seem to be off to a slower start this week. i think my body is catching up with me for all that i have put it through in the last few weeks...and that's a lot, but no need to dwell on that right now.
Today, finally, i went and had the title of my car transferred into my name. i tried to do it earlier, but the inspection was more than 90 days old, so i had to have it reinspected for a 3rd time since October (long story) But, it passed. Then i needed to get new tires because mine were pretty worn down and that cost a pretty penny...yay for tax returns. Anyway, i spent a good chunk of change today getting the title transferred because i had to pay property tax, which i'd forgotten about. Let's just say i'm doing nothing for the next few days unless it's free! And you have to have cash for the notary, which of course, i didn't. Luckily, they have an atm right there in the License Plate office. It struck me as funny that they have one, but the big DMV building here in town doesn't....and you have to go across the street to a little convenience store LOL Oh well, it's done now and i have at least one asset to my name.
And i went by the antiques shop today and got some training for watching the shop, which will start on Thursday. i'm very much looking forward to it. i've always loved antiques and working someplace like this will be good for me. The pay isn't too much, but the experience will be worth it and it will leave my schedule open some for other part time work for the time being.
Let's see what free things tomorrow has in store.
Today, finally, i went and had the title of my car transferred into my name. i tried to do it earlier, but the inspection was more than 90 days old, so i had to have it reinspected for a 3rd time since October (long story) But, it passed. Then i needed to get new tires because mine were pretty worn down and that cost a pretty penny...yay for tax returns. Anyway, i spent a good chunk of change today getting the title transferred because i had to pay property tax, which i'd forgotten about. Let's just say i'm doing nothing for the next few days unless it's free! And you have to have cash for the notary, which of course, i didn't. Luckily, they have an atm right there in the License Plate office. It struck me as funny that they have one, but the big DMV building here in town doesn't....and you have to go across the street to a little convenience store LOL Oh well, it's done now and i have at least one asset to my name.
And i went by the antiques shop today and got some training for watching the shop, which will start on Thursday. i'm very much looking forward to it. i've always loved antiques and working someplace like this will be good for me. The pay isn't too much, but the experience will be worth it and it will leave my schedule open some for other part time work for the time being.
Let's see what free things tomorrow has in store.
Monday, June 16, 2014
Day 16
So far, this Monday hasn't been as hard as last one was. Of course, i didn't just come home from vacation either LOL And i'm ok with that today haha
Today, while i'm working around the house and making lists of things i need to get done, one list is going to be a resource list. i'm not on linkedin or whatever that site is called...maybe i should be at this point in the game LOL But, i need to sit down and figure out who my connections are. i know an awful lot of people in Greensboro, so it could be a nice big list. It will come in handy while looking for work, no doubt.
Today, while i'm working around the house and making lists of things i need to get done, one list is going to be a resource list. i'm not on linkedin or whatever that site is called...maybe i should be at this point in the game LOL But, i need to sit down and figure out who my connections are. i know an awful lot of people in Greensboro, so it could be a nice big list. It will come in handy while looking for work, no doubt.
Sunday, June 15, 2014
50 reasons for me to quit smoking
1. my husband
2. my family
3. my dog
4. my overall health
5. both of my grandmothers buried one of their children, i don't want my Dad to have to do the same
6. so many recipes i haven't cooked yet
7. i enjoy Christmas too much not to be around for it
8. too many friends i haven't seen in years that i want to see again
9. think of the money i'll save
10. i want to join a handbell choir
11. i want to prove to myself i can do it
12. there's a winning lottery ticket out there for me somewhere
13. too many people out there i've yet to meet
14. i love boxing, but it's hard to box when you're a smoker
15. i haven't had enough sex.
16. i haven't seen a show on Broadway since 1999
17. i want to get back to being proficient at the piano
18. i want to go back to school and get an actual degree
19. i love seeing flowers bloom in the spring and summer
20. i want to go to England
21. i haven't seen Bernadette Peters in concert yet
22. i have a list of antiques i want and i don't have them yet
23. i want to workout more
24. i want to do theater again
25. i want to see my nieces grow up and get to know them better
26. the garage really needs attention
27. i won't honor my Mom by giving up
28. if Anne Murray comes out of retirement, i wanna be around for it
29. i still need to learn to swim
30. i won't smell like an ashtray all of the time
31. the money i save could go towards actual vacations
32. i'm stronger than i think i am
33. i don't want to quit smoking the same way my Mom did
34. i haven't been to Disney World since 1990 and i want to go back!
35. i want to learn how to drive a stick shift
36. i won't have to worry about a low bank account balance as much
37. i have past lives i want to revisit at some point
38. i want to see Audra McDonald perform in person
39. i'm still planning my dream home
40. people need me, whether or not they realize it
41. haven't bought enough sterling flatware yet
42. i'll have more energy
43. walking Squirt will be so much nicer without a cigarette in hand
44. my body's telling me it's time
45. i want to work with an animal rescue group
46. it's just not as fun as it use to be
47. i want to travel to the west coast at least once
48. i haven't written my novel yet
49. i want grandchildren, ie our nieces and nephew's kids lol
50. i wanna relearn what it feels like to take a deep breath
10 things you don't know about me...#9
Love in the Lunchroom
When i was in the 4th grade, i began writing a weekly serial/soap opera for my AG class called "Love in the Lunchroom" i never intended it to be read to the class, but after i wrote the first 3 episodes, i showed them to our teacher, Mrs. Goebel, who immediately read them out loud to the class. After that, every few weeks or so, i would give her more stories and she would read them to everybody. Of course, i used all of my friends in the stories, so that was pretty fun and i did enjoy that creative power. They were a lot of fun to write, but at that age, i didn't know much about the facts of life. So, one person would become pregnant and then give birth the next episode. And if you've ever watched a daily soap, that sometimes happens LOL Still, i really did enjoy it and wrote episodes of "Love in the Lunchroom" for the next two years. i still have all of the handwritten ones saved somewhere in the house....Good times.
i need to write more like that...i miss it :)
When i was in the 4th grade, i began writing a weekly serial/soap opera for my AG class called "Love in the Lunchroom" i never intended it to be read to the class, but after i wrote the first 3 episodes, i showed them to our teacher, Mrs. Goebel, who immediately read them out loud to the class. After that, every few weeks or so, i would give her more stories and she would read them to everybody. Of course, i used all of my friends in the stories, so that was pretty fun and i did enjoy that creative power. They were a lot of fun to write, but at that age, i didn't know much about the facts of life. So, one person would become pregnant and then give birth the next episode. And if you've ever watched a daily soap, that sometimes happens LOL Still, i really did enjoy it and wrote episodes of "Love in the Lunchroom" for the next two years. i still have all of the handwritten ones saved somewhere in the house....Good times.
i need to write more like that...i miss it :)
Day 14
And here we are...two weeks later...good times
this week's been hard for me...much more up and down than usual...i just haven't had much motivation to get anything done besides be a slave to my vices...but i know that will change...i will survive
this week's been hard for me...much more up and down than usual...i just haven't had much motivation to get anything done besides be a slave to my vices...but i know that will change...i will survive
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
Day 11
The morning's are the hardest for me so far. Between about 7:30 and 9:30 i feel extremely lost. That's been the time that i get in the car, drive to work and begin my day...helping to get deliveries ready, pulling linens for the day's events, helping the supervisors when i can, working the warehouse before it gets too hot. Now, i don't really know what to do with myself during that time. My routine from 7 years in the position has been totally thrown off. And i know it throws Michael off as well because he's not use to having me home at that time yet. i'm sure that i will find something to fill the void....exercise maybe, but until i figure that out, it's going to be frustrating. But, life moves forward and so will i!
i did make myself get in the car yesterday and get out of the house. i dropped a carload of stuff off at Goodwill, then went grocery shopping. My first trip to Aldi's, but it definitely won't be my last. What a great store. i can't believe it took me so long to try it. Michael will stop at the one in Burlington on his way home from work sometimes, but i'd never been to one before and we have 3 of them here in Greensboro. Great savings, i must say. Even though right now i'm much more conscious of my spending, i know i got my money's worth.
Oh well, the dishwasher's running and i need to start thinking about dinner. Wish me luck.
i did make myself get in the car yesterday and get out of the house. i dropped a carload of stuff off at Goodwill, then went grocery shopping. My first trip to Aldi's, but it definitely won't be my last. What a great store. i can't believe it took me so long to try it. Michael will stop at the one in Burlington on his way home from work sometimes, but i'd never been to one before and we have 3 of them here in Greensboro. Great savings, i must say. Even though right now i'm much more conscious of my spending, i know i got my money's worth.
Oh well, the dishwasher's running and i need to start thinking about dinner. Wish me luck.
Monday, June 9, 2014
Day 9
Yeah, this kinda sucks. Today's been a frustrating day because i just cannot get myself motivated. Partly out of boredom, partly out of fear.
We had a great weekend in the mountains of Tennessee, seeing old friends, making new ones, and lounging by the pool. However, coming back to nothing to do has hit me harder today than any day so far. At least it's easy to keep up with how many days it's been since my first unemployed day was June 9th LOL It's the little things.
We had a great weekend in the mountains of Tennessee, seeing old friends, making new ones, and lounging by the pool. However, coming back to nothing to do has hit me harder today than any day so far. At least it's easy to keep up with how many days it's been since my first unemployed day was June 9th LOL It's the little things.
Monday, June 2, 2014
Day 1
Well, today is, needless to say, weird for me. This is the first time i've gotten up on a Monday and not had to go to work. i'm trying very hard to find things to occupy my day, but right now it's difficult. i keep pacing back and forth around the house, opening up cabinets, opening/closing doors, trying to figure out my next move. Hopefully i will find something to keep my occupied and provide some sense of accomplishment today. Got some laundry going, so that's a start.
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