Last night was bad
For the first time since being let go from my job, i got very depressed. Luckily, i came back to the surface before falling asleep, but not before driving my husband bat shit crazy. Oh well. It made me determined that today is going to be better.
i've decided to put myself through some, for lack of a better word, detox. i'm going to give up several of my vices....some permanently, some temporarily. What those vices are do not matter to anyone but myself. From a financial, physical and emotional standpoint, it is something i MUST do. And i am looking forward to the challenge of it all.
Having said that, to the few people who read this (lol), i'm going to need some supervision or what i'd like to call Bobsitting. For awhile, anyway, i can't be left to my own resources. If you're not an addict, you may not understand this. i used to think that addict was a bad word...now i know it's just an adjective, albeit a heavy one. i have a very addictive personality and i come by in naturally. Luckily, i never did get addicted to anything illegal, but still, i have my addictions. Now it's time to conquer those and let some newer, healthier addictions take their places in my life. We'll see how it goes. Anyway, back to Bobsitting. i need to surround myself with people while i'm not job searching. During the day, at night, whatever. i'm not really driving much these days so that i can save on gas for my new car. But, if anyone has some time, come hang out, play games, listen to records, watch a movie, etc. i could use the support!
Well, that's how i'm feeling today. Wish me luck!
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