Thought for the day - October

Ah, November is here already and October came and went very quickly.  On one hand i am relieved that it is gone already, but on the other hand i feel like i need to rewind and do it all over again.  October was a tough, tough month for me...too much going on, too much happening and not enough time to get it done, per usual.

At the beginning of the month, i had all of that IRS crap to deal with.  i think i have it all settled in that i have worked out a payment plan with them.  But still, it's just another way for what little money i have to go back out the window before i even get it.  Ah, well.  Then, after doing research for one of my social work assignments, i discovered that, according to the US Government that i live in poverty.  i do not know why this shocked me as much as it did, but i was really taken aback by it.  i know that life changes often and i must roll with the punches, but i was not prepared to see that in black and white.  It really does make me feel like a failure at 40 years old but there isn't a whole lot i can do about it at the moment.  Being in school and working 30 hours a week are enough for me to handle right now and a 2nd job would probably do me in. It just sucks because i get so tired of not being able to do things i want to because i do not have the luxury of extra money.  It was hard to have to tell my family that i cannot participate in Thanksgiving this year simply because i cannot afford to be off of work for more than 2 days, if even that.  i have to admit that they all took it a lot better than i did!  And this past week, i get an email from financial aid saying that i am approaching my hours quota to qualify for financial aid.  That really sucks.  Because i fucked up my first time around in college, i am being punished for it now.  i have a lot of paperwork to do to see if i can rectify the situation, so hopefully i can.  If not, i will have to figure out another way to do this.  It's just one thing after another.  i know i will get through it all and survive, but geeeeezz can i have a break?  Ah, well.

That's my rant for the day.  Time to move on to better things.

Cheers