i have been taking my own sweet time putting my Christmas decor away. i enjoy it, so why be in such a rush to get rid of it? It makes me sad when i see all of those Christmas trees out on the street, waiting to be picked up by the garbage collectors, on December 26th. It's almost like people don't cherish it anymore. Maybe they are just tired of it seeing as the media starts shoving Christmas down our throats well before Halloween is even here (which, actually, i despise how commercialistic that is)
For me, it is almost as much fun to put the decorations away as it is to put them out. When i am packing them away in boxes, i get to relive their history and the memories that each one holds. And, i can tell you just about where all of my decorations came from. It is fun for me and i look forward to next Christmas to do it all over again.
And the music...i cannot say that i miss the music because i listen to it all year round. i try not to subject anyone else to it during non holiday times, but i still enjoy it. And i was determined to get through all of my Christmas records before i put them back in their storage spot. That was roughly 70 records, so it took some time. i listened to the last of them while i was taking the tree down on the 12th lol Of course, then when i was putting things away, i found a box of Christmas CDs that i had not heard this year yet, so they are still sitting out, waiting to be listened to. i am about halfway through them :)
This was the first year we have had a live tree. i did not realize how much i missed having one. Getting it out of the house and out to the curb almost killed me. It was just hard to do because it meant the holidays were really over. When i saw it in the back of the garbage truck, i almost ran after it to get it back. Alas, i did not.
But, it is all put away now, except for those few CDs i have left to listen to. The reason i do not like to take Christmas down is because what it means to me in my life thus far. It is a time of hope. A time to put away differences and celebrate something more important. It is a spiritual time for most of us, no matter which religion you practice or if you practice one at all. It is a time when families come together and create memories. It is a time for believing in things that are beyond human tangibility. And i become afraid that i did not make the most of my time. What if this was my last Christmas? Did i do all that i could to create a Christmas that people will remember one day? That's why i do not like it to end, because i never feel like i did enough. Maybe i did, maybe i did not. i do not know, but i did try and that is all i can ask of myself. i really need to take the way Christmas makes me feel and carry it with me throughout the year. I love Christmas enough that there is no reason for me not to.
Well, Michael's in bed now, so i think i will put on one of those Christmas CDs and relax.
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