Sometimes I disagree with God

 I have my own relationship with God.  It's mine and no one else's.  It will not be like yours as it is specific to my needs and what I believe God expects from me.  I talk to him daily and, for the most part, trust in his guidance.  I know that obstacles are put in my way to see how I will deal with them, how I will overcome them.  I believe that his plan for me changes almost daily, as my plan for myself does.

But lately I have been wondering if it's wrong to disagree with God.  What if he does things that I don't think are correct?  Or to put it in other words, if he's gone too far to prove a point to mankind?  Sometimes I find myself saying "God, just stop it already.  We get the point.  You've given us the problems and given us the tools to handle them, so please let us try before making your point again.  Give it a rest."  I hate that say that, but I do.  

I don't often talk specifically about the goings on in our world on here.  And I'm really not going to change that today.  But with all of the horrible things going on today, I often stop and wonder why.  I know that some trials and tribulations will last years....possibly hundreds of years.  Is that what this is? Are we to live in this fear of mankind for the rest of my life?  In the past few weeks I have been repeating a line from a film in my head over and over.  There is a scene that takes place after a child has been in an accident.  The local reverend is present to give comfort and talk about God's mercy.  He is met with the reply:  "What kind of a merciful God could allow a thing like this to happen to a child?"  That has been ringing in my ears daily, hourly.  And I have been asking God that question.  

I do hate to question what he does, but sometimes I'm like please just give it a rest and be merciful right now.  It's a sparring match that will go on between me and God for awhile I believe. I do not think it offends him.  I've never been one to question authority very much and have to take these feelings to mean that he is actually pushing me into a direction in my journey of life.  Couples argue sometimes, it's part of life.  This really isn't that different.  I've just never been much of an arguer but sometimes you just have to.

Even though I disagree with God sometimes, we get through it and keep moving forward.  It just sucks in the meantime.  That is all.