90% of the time, it is so much easier to be happy than be unhappy. Sometimes life forces us to be unhappy through things like death and illness. You can find the happiness there, but it isn't as easy to do. And i know that the greatest barrier to my own happiness is myself. So, that is my project to work on today. i am going to find the happy :) Last night, i thought i was depressed. And when i woke up this morning, i realized that being depressed was not my issue. i feel disconnected to my life right now. Part of it, truly, is this weather. As much as i have enjoyed my time off from school, i have also missed the interaction of being there. So, today i am going to do a few things that i know that i enjoy. i will find some happy. That is all.
Cheers
Saturday, February 28, 2015
Friday, February 27, 2015
thought for the day
i have decided to take a hiatus from Facebook statuses for myself. i enjoy Facebook and will still go there and like things on other peoples' pages and pictures and the pages that i have subscribed to. But, i am going to try very hard, for awhile at least, to not use my status option and comment as little as possible. That is why i have my blog...to express my real feelings outside of the scrutiny of other people. Not that i mind having others comment, but, as i am guilty of it in the past too, most people do not think before they say something on Facebook. It has taken me a long time to figure out what Facebook means to me.....nothing other than a source of entertainment. That is all. i do not want to take it any more seriously than that other wise it will suck up whatever soul i have left.
Three things have led me to this today. One is something that happened to me on Facebook that made me realize how i often treat others on there. We all have things that we enjoy in life. Who is to judge what I like or don't like? No one but myself. And it hurts my feelings being made fun of because of things that i enjoy. i was having a lovely conversation on my own page with a friend who shares a love for dishes. It isn't often that i get to talk about that because it's really not Michael's thing and no one really comes to the house to often that is a dish lover. So, while i'm having this conversation, someone sends me a message blatantly making fun of the talk i am having. i realize that it was meant in jest, but at the time it angered me because up until then i was really enjoying myself. And it made me look back at things i have said that might have hurt someone's feelings in a similar situation. i have a friend that is a Celine Dion fanatic and i have made several jokes at his expense because of that. It was not until this happened to me that i realized i was guilty of the same thing. And i have made a conscious effort not do to that any more because my friend obviously gets great pleasure out of Celine and i am in no place to make judgement on that, be it a joke or not.
The second thing is just the disrespect some people have. When Dean Smith passed away a few weeks ago, most of my Facebook friends were saddened by it. He touched many lives directly and indirectly. i will admit that i do not enjoy basketball, but i know that he meant a great deal to many people. And, from what i have read, Mr. Smith did many good, humanitarian things during his lifetime. And i find it disrespectful not to let people morn someone that they looked up to. Several of my Facebook friends were ranting and raving about all of the posts on Mr. Smith and how they did not care that he had died and wish people would just shut up about it. And yet, these same people today have been posting how sad they are at the loss of Leonard Nimoy. i guarantee you that they would get pissed as hell and start unfriending people if they started talking about Mr. Nimoy's passing like they themselves talked about Mr. Smith's.
The third thing goes alongs the lines of disrespect and judgement. Whenever there is a basketball or football game on, my Facebook feed is flooded with play by play updates. i, honestly, could care less. And sometimes i will post a status making a joke about it because i really don't care if people are watching it. They enjoy it and should be allowed to post whatever they want on their walls about it. People will laugh at the joke and we all move on. That's how it goes. i enjoy watching award shows. Now, i will post something every now and then while watching it, but i'm not one to do a play by play of it because then i'm not really watching lol Take the Oscars last week. i watched it with some friends and had a great time. And i enjoyed reading my friends' commentaries on the fashions, the awards and yes, Lady Gaga's Sound of Music tribute. However, the next morning i had more than a few friends on FB posting condemning messages about the awards show, pretty much belittling anyone who spent their time watching. Why do they even care? What is the point of squelching someone else's enjoyment in life. This day and age there is so precious little to enjoy anyway, why crap all over it? And believe me, there's a fine line between making light hearted fun of something and just being a hateful bitch. i know...i can be both.
And lately, i guess this a fourth thing, which can happen in a stream of consciousness kind of way, i am realizing that intelligent people are clinging to Facebook as their source of education, learning and news. Most things that go viral on the internet are not news or educational. They may be entertaining, thought provoking or clever, but not news so stop trying to compare apples to oranges. If you don't want to see posts about topics, there's a lovely little button you can click on that gives you the option not to see posts on that subject. Isn't that convenient? Based on this morning's long list of posts on my feed about some dress that may be blue and black or gold and white, i don't know because i never clicked the article, some people were bitchingly stating the obvious that it was not newsworthy or educational. DUH!!!! Who cares if it's not. Sometimes it is just nice to log into a website and not be inundated with the depressing things going on around us.
Oh well, that's all i'm going to say right now because i'm going to go and log onto Facebook to see what all of the puppy mill rescue dogs i follow have been up to today.
Cheers!
Three things have led me to this today. One is something that happened to me on Facebook that made me realize how i often treat others on there. We all have things that we enjoy in life. Who is to judge what I like or don't like? No one but myself. And it hurts my feelings being made fun of because of things that i enjoy. i was having a lovely conversation on my own page with a friend who shares a love for dishes. It isn't often that i get to talk about that because it's really not Michael's thing and no one really comes to the house to often that is a dish lover. So, while i'm having this conversation, someone sends me a message blatantly making fun of the talk i am having. i realize that it was meant in jest, but at the time it angered me because up until then i was really enjoying myself. And it made me look back at things i have said that might have hurt someone's feelings in a similar situation. i have a friend that is a Celine Dion fanatic and i have made several jokes at his expense because of that. It was not until this happened to me that i realized i was guilty of the same thing. And i have made a conscious effort not do to that any more because my friend obviously gets great pleasure out of Celine and i am in no place to make judgement on that, be it a joke or not.
The second thing is just the disrespect some people have. When Dean Smith passed away a few weeks ago, most of my Facebook friends were saddened by it. He touched many lives directly and indirectly. i will admit that i do not enjoy basketball, but i know that he meant a great deal to many people. And, from what i have read, Mr. Smith did many good, humanitarian things during his lifetime. And i find it disrespectful not to let people morn someone that they looked up to. Several of my Facebook friends were ranting and raving about all of the posts on Mr. Smith and how they did not care that he had died and wish people would just shut up about it. And yet, these same people today have been posting how sad they are at the loss of Leonard Nimoy. i guarantee you that they would get pissed as hell and start unfriending people if they started talking about Mr. Nimoy's passing like they themselves talked about Mr. Smith's.
The third thing goes alongs the lines of disrespect and judgement. Whenever there is a basketball or football game on, my Facebook feed is flooded with play by play updates. i, honestly, could care less. And sometimes i will post a status making a joke about it because i really don't care if people are watching it. They enjoy it and should be allowed to post whatever they want on their walls about it. People will laugh at the joke and we all move on. That's how it goes. i enjoy watching award shows. Now, i will post something every now and then while watching it, but i'm not one to do a play by play of it because then i'm not really watching lol Take the Oscars last week. i watched it with some friends and had a great time. And i enjoyed reading my friends' commentaries on the fashions, the awards and yes, Lady Gaga's Sound of Music tribute. However, the next morning i had more than a few friends on FB posting condemning messages about the awards show, pretty much belittling anyone who spent their time watching. Why do they even care? What is the point of squelching someone else's enjoyment in life. This day and age there is so precious little to enjoy anyway, why crap all over it? And believe me, there's a fine line between making light hearted fun of something and just being a hateful bitch. i know...i can be both.
And lately, i guess this a fourth thing, which can happen in a stream of consciousness kind of way, i am realizing that intelligent people are clinging to Facebook as their source of education, learning and news. Most things that go viral on the internet are not news or educational. They may be entertaining, thought provoking or clever, but not news so stop trying to compare apples to oranges. If you don't want to see posts about topics, there's a lovely little button you can click on that gives you the option not to see posts on that subject. Isn't that convenient? Based on this morning's long list of posts on my feed about some dress that may be blue and black or gold and white, i don't know because i never clicked the article, some people were bitchingly stating the obvious that it was not newsworthy or educational. DUH!!!! Who cares if it's not. Sometimes it is just nice to log into a website and not be inundated with the depressing things going on around us.
Oh well, that's all i'm going to say right now because i'm going to go and log onto Facebook to see what all of the puppy mill rescue dogs i follow have been up to today.
Cheers!
Thursday, February 26, 2015
Yesterday, i sat down and played and practiced the piano for the first time in months. i really have missed it and am looking forward to incorporating it into my daily life more. Part of the reason i made time to do it is the fact that it's a big ass piece of furniture that just sits there collecting dust! i'm on this kick of trying to use everything and if i don't use it, get rid of it. i've wanted a piano for a long time and Michael graciously got me one for our anniversary a few years back, so now it's time to re acquaint myself with the instrument!
At one point in my life, i was fairly good at playing the piano. Like most kids, i did not particularly enjoy taking lessons, but i did take them for 13 years. i'm very glad i stuck with it. In college, i spent many hours in a practice room in the music building just playing and playing. And i loved accompanying people. Marcia Sofley and i spent countless hours playing and singing. Well, she sang while i tried to play haha But, those are really cherished memories for me.
And, playing the piano is very relaxing for me. Whenever i'm tense and stressed out, if i take the time to sit down and play, i am almost immediately better. It just takes me away to a different place. There's something about music that is simply magical that way. And even more magical when you're making the music yourself!
So many wonderful times in my life were spent at the piano. Mom and i would play and sing together all of the time. And Grandmother use to love to sit and listen as we played. Those are such good memories. And of course, during the holidays we played a lot. When my Uncle Bill came to visit, he and Mom would play and sing for all of us. It's quite a special thing to have a life filled with music.
Michael got me a piano for our anniversary a few years ago. It definitely needs some work, but hey, it was free and i'm totally ok with free! But i do so enjoy just sitting down at the piano and trying to plunk out some of the pieces i use to play. Even the fact that some of the keys don't work does not take away from my enjoyment. i know they will get fixed one day!
Bottom line....i need to play my piano more...and i will!
Cheers!
At one point in my life, i was fairly good at playing the piano. Like most kids, i did not particularly enjoy taking lessons, but i did take them for 13 years. i'm very glad i stuck with it. In college, i spent many hours in a practice room in the music building just playing and playing. And i loved accompanying people. Marcia Sofley and i spent countless hours playing and singing. Well, she sang while i tried to play haha But, those are really cherished memories for me.
And, playing the piano is very relaxing for me. Whenever i'm tense and stressed out, if i take the time to sit down and play, i am almost immediately better. It just takes me away to a different place. There's something about music that is simply magical that way. And even more magical when you're making the music yourself!
So many wonderful times in my life were spent at the piano. Mom and i would play and sing together all of the time. And Grandmother use to love to sit and listen as we played. Those are such good memories. And of course, during the holidays we played a lot. When my Uncle Bill came to visit, he and Mom would play and sing for all of us. It's quite a special thing to have a life filled with music.
Bottom line....i need to play my piano more...and i will!
Cheers!
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
recipe of the week - blueberry cobbler
This is one of my Mom's recipes. It is actually for any kind of fruit cobbler you want to make. She always use to make it with peaches but i prefer blueberries. i will probably give peaches a try once they are in season again. Enjoy!
3 cups sweetened blueberries (or fruit of your choice)
1 stick of margarine, melted
1 cup flour
1 cup sugar
1 1/2 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp salt
3/4 cup milk
Mix and bake at 350 for 30 minutes. Serves 8-10
3 cups sweetened blueberries (or fruit of your choice)
1 stick of margarine, melted
1 cup flour
1 cup sugar
1 1/2 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp salt
3/4 cup milk
Mix and bake at 350 for 30 minutes. Serves 8-10
So, this obviously brings back lots of good memories for me of the snow days we had growing up. It was always so exciting to wake up early on snow days to see if it actually snowed. And then to have to sit in front of the television and watch the news to see if school had been cancelled that day. Ah, the days before texts lol Mostly what i remember about the snow days is being inside rather than outside. Yes, we did go outside. It was exciting to spend a long time getting into all of our winter gear then spending maybe...just maybe..an entire hour outside before we deemed it to be too cold and were ready to go back inside.
Being inside the house was always fun on snow days. One of my parents usually would go and pick up Grandmother and bring her over, so all of us were there. We did things like play games and cards and do crossword puzzles. Lots of coloring to do. Always a real fire in the fire place. And Buttons, our dog, got to stay inside during snow days. She was such a great dog, no offense Squirt :) And Mom usually made a big pot of soup or chili...both were delicious. Sometimes Grandmother would treat us to some snow cream, which i haven't had in probably 30 years.
But it was just that feeling of togetherness that i took away mostly from those snow days. That sense of knowing that no matter what happened, i was safe and warm inside with my family. i cherish that. And in that sense, i do enjoy snow days. It is worth the headache of having my classes cancelled and/or delayed just to go back and linger in the warmth of another time.
Now, as for me, i am going to make a pot of chili, albeit white bean chicken chili, and curl up on the sofa with my dog!
Thursday, February 19, 2015
thought for the day
Today, i have to keep telling myself that i am not stupid. That i am better than i give myself credit. That i recognize that i have faults and that i do not use my resources the way i should. i get down on myself sometimes, i know...shocker, right? and today seems to be one of those days. i have just been using my safety nets too much without thinking what will happen once those safety nets are not in place anymore. i am not ready to come crashing down to the ground.
So, for today, i need to just buck up and grow up. Some days that is harder to do than others. But, in the end, all i can do is try. Now, if only i can figure out the tools to help me do that.
Short and to the point.
Cheers
So, for today, i need to just buck up and grow up. Some days that is harder to do than others. But, in the end, all i can do is try. Now, if only i can figure out the tools to help me do that.
Short and to the point.
Cheers
Wednesday, February 18, 2015
recipe of the week - chili
i've been looking for a good chili recipe for years. Mom made great chili, but i don't know whatever happened to her recipe...i sure don't have it. But, this is a good basic chili recipe i found this year that i think i'm going to stick to for awhile! Enjoy!
2 medium onions, chopped
1 medium green pepper, chopped
1/2 cup chopped celery
1 tbsp vegetable oil
2 lbs ground beef
2 cans (28 ounces each) diced tomatoes, undrained
1 can (8 ounces) tomato sauce
1 cup water
2 tbsp Worcestershire sauce
1 to 2 tbsp chili powder
1 tsp garlic powder
1 tsp dried oregano
1 tsp salt
1/2 tsp pepper
2 cans (16 ounces each) kidney beans, rinsed and drained
In a soup kettle or Dutch oven, saute onions, green pepper and celery in oil until tender, about 5 minutes. Add beef and cook until browned; drain. Stir in tomatoes, tomato sauce, water, Worcestershire sauce and seasonings. Bring to a boil; reduce heat. Cover and simmer for 1-1/2 hours, stirring occasionally. Add kidney beans. Simmer, uncovered, 10 minutes longer. Yields 10-12 servings.
*i did mine a little differently. i sauteed the onions, pepper and celery in a separate pan. It was easier to drain the fat from the beef that way, then i mixed them all together.
*i like to top off my bowl of chili with some cheese and a dollop of sour cream :)
1 medium green pepper, chopped
1/2 cup chopped celery
1 tbsp vegetable oil
2 lbs ground beef
2 cans (28 ounces each) diced tomatoes, undrained
1 can (8 ounces) tomato sauce
1 cup water
2 tbsp Worcestershire sauce
1 to 2 tbsp chili powder
1 tsp garlic powder
1 tsp dried oregano
1 tsp salt
1/2 tsp pepper
2 cans (16 ounces each) kidney beans, rinsed and drained
In a soup kettle or Dutch oven, saute onions, green pepper and celery in oil until tender, about 5 minutes. Add beef and cook until browned; drain. Stir in tomatoes, tomato sauce, water, Worcestershire sauce and seasonings. Bring to a boil; reduce heat. Cover and simmer for 1-1/2 hours, stirring occasionally. Add kidney beans. Simmer, uncovered, 10 minutes longer. Yields 10-12 servings.
*i did mine a little differently. i sauteed the onions, pepper and celery in a separate pan. It was easier to drain the fat from the beef that way, then i mixed them all together.
*i like to top off my bowl of chili with some cheese and a dollop of sour cream :)
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
thought for the day
Today, i am in a funk. Actually, it started last night but it's still here. There are several reasons that i am in a funk...i know this...and i don't like it but that is the hand i have been dealt this week. Ah, well.
One, this weather really affects me. i am tired of all of these cloudy days. Where is the sunshine? yes, we have had a few nice days of springlike weather recently and that, i think, did more damage more than good. It was just a tease of how i want the weather to be. Now, we're back to overcast and cloudy and it really affects my mood.
Two, this week is the anniversary of Mom's death. i always know it is coming and it always affects me differently. i'm trying not to get depressed about it, but for some reason this year, i am. Maybe it is because i turned 40 this year and that is the age when things started to go downhill for Mom. Maybe it is the fear that i will be following in her footsteps and i still have so many things left to do on my bucket list. i don't know. i do know that i miss her and some days are just harder than others.
Third, school is stressing me out. i enjoy it, don't doubt that. It is a wonderful environment and my professors are great. i am just having a harder time with classes this semester. Things are not clicking for me like they did last year. Math based classes are a different kind of thinking that i have not had to do for a long time and i just have not caught up yet. And i am so bad about procrastinating that i get behind so easily. i really do need to work on that because it will make things go more smoothly in the long run.
And i have a few more personal issues to work thru that seem to rear their ugly heads when i get depressed and in a funk. i know that i just have to suck it up and change things and get things done. It will be a huge burden lifted if/when i do that. And after 40 years, i think i deserve to treat myself to some happiness. Happiness is so much easier to obtain than i let it be. i am tired of making things so difficult. Period.
Cheers
One, this weather really affects me. i am tired of all of these cloudy days. Where is the sunshine? yes, we have had a few nice days of springlike weather recently and that, i think, did more damage more than good. It was just a tease of how i want the weather to be. Now, we're back to overcast and cloudy and it really affects my mood.
Two, this week is the anniversary of Mom's death. i always know it is coming and it always affects me differently. i'm trying not to get depressed about it, but for some reason this year, i am. Maybe it is because i turned 40 this year and that is the age when things started to go downhill for Mom. Maybe it is the fear that i will be following in her footsteps and i still have so many things left to do on my bucket list. i don't know. i do know that i miss her and some days are just harder than others.
Third, school is stressing me out. i enjoy it, don't doubt that. It is a wonderful environment and my professors are great. i am just having a harder time with classes this semester. Things are not clicking for me like they did last year. Math based classes are a different kind of thinking that i have not had to do for a long time and i just have not caught up yet. And i am so bad about procrastinating that i get behind so easily. i really do need to work on that because it will make things go more smoothly in the long run.
And i have a few more personal issues to work thru that seem to rear their ugly heads when i get depressed and in a funk. i know that i just have to suck it up and change things and get things done. It will be a huge burden lifted if/when i do that. And after 40 years, i think i deserve to treat myself to some happiness. Happiness is so much easier to obtain than i let it be. i am tired of making things so difficult. Period.
Cheers
Saturday, February 7, 2015
thought for the day
i'm just not a spur of the moment kind of person. i wish i was. Mainly i wish i was because i keep forgetting that i'm not and then i get disappointed when i try to do things spontaneously and they don't work out. i just do better when things are planned out in advance. Yes, that's more boring, but that is the hand life has dealt me.
i sometimes wonder when i stopped doing things like that. Just calling someone up and doing something. Or having someone call me and doing something. It just doesn't happen really anymore. i think once i had to start paying bills on my own, that carefree part of me, what little there was, just disappeared. i do miss taking impromptu trips, or just going to see a movie or have dinner, just because it was something to do. Oh well LOL
i sometimes wonder when i stopped doing things like that. Just calling someone up and doing something. Or having someone call me and doing something. It just doesn't happen really anymore. i think once i had to start paying bills on my own, that carefree part of me, what little there was, just disappeared. i do miss taking impromptu trips, or just going to see a movie or have dinner, just because it was something to do. Oh well LOL
Thursday, February 5, 2015
Recipe of the week - Cherry salad (gelatin)
Congealed salads were definitely a staple at our dinner table growing up. Especially Sunday lunches after church. Aunt Sara would bring one every time she came to have lunch at Grandmother's house. She had a specific basket that she carried it in and it sat in the foot of the passenger side front seat of her car on her short trip from Wingate to Monroe. Every time. They were always delicious. i have several of her recipes for congealed salads and i love them. This recipe, though, Mom got from a dear family friend, Bobbi Yandle, who worked with Mom and lived just a few houses down from us. It's a very pretty salad and looks good on any table...especially at Christmas :) i don't make them as often as i use to because, frankly, Michael does not care for them so i wait until we have company over before i make one. Otherwise, i would end up eating the entire thing by myself...which i have no trouble doing :) Enjoy!
2 3oz packages of cherry jello
2 cups boiling water
1 can of cherry pie filling
1 20oz can of crushed pineapple, drained
1 cup chopped nuts
Dissolve jello in boiling water and cool. Add pie filling, nuts and pineapple. Stir once the gelatin begins to mound to evenly distribute the fruit. Chill until ready to serve.
2 3oz packages of cherry jello
2 cups boiling water
1 can of cherry pie filling
1 20oz can of crushed pineapple, drained
1 cup chopped nuts
Dissolve jello in boiling water and cool. Add pie filling, nuts and pineapple. Stir once the gelatin begins to mound to evenly distribute the fruit. Chill until ready to serve.
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
thought for the day
As the sun comes up on this third day of February, i find myself just ok LOL i am just not as excited about school this semester as i was last semester. i know that part of it is that the newness of it all has worn off. But, also the classes i am taking this semester seem to be more complicated and that is making it tougher for me. It is really going to be a test of my management skills to get through it all. i know i can do it, i just do not feel very motivated at this time! So, i have to get myself motivated.
Some days i think that i should lean on my acting training. Hell, i should at least benefit from all of the learning i did back in the day. Maybe i just need to play a character that is excited about school. Do my packing (John Gulley term) and figure out what kind of person i want to play. If i do it enough, maybe it will start to sink in and infuse those characteristics into my daily life. Who knows, but at least it is worth a shot.
i will get there, one way or another. i just have to accept the frustrations i am dealing with and make sure that i also give myself time. Looking at the big picture helps. i have a goal, now i must obtain it. In the past, i have been so bad about giving up half way through something...a repeated pattern in my life....that it is time for me to finally break this pattern. i have obligations and promises to keep. i know i can do this.
Time to get excited now!
Cheers!
Some days i think that i should lean on my acting training. Hell, i should at least benefit from all of the learning i did back in the day. Maybe i just need to play a character that is excited about school. Do my packing (John Gulley term) and figure out what kind of person i want to play. If i do it enough, maybe it will start to sink in and infuse those characteristics into my daily life. Who knows, but at least it is worth a shot.
i will get there, one way or another. i just have to accept the frustrations i am dealing with and make sure that i also give myself time. Looking at the big picture helps. i have a goal, now i must obtain it. In the past, i have been so bad about giving up half way through something...a repeated pattern in my life....that it is time for me to finally break this pattern. i have obligations and promises to keep. i know i can do this.
Time to get excited now!
Cheers!
Monday, February 2, 2015
thought for the day
This year, i am trying to do more writing. So far, i am on my way to achieving my goal. Last month, i managed to squeeze out about 13 blog entries. That may not sound like a lot, but it is already more than a quarter of what i wrote in 2014. It is good for me to just force myself to sit down and write whatever i am feeling. Sometimes, i am inspired and have a topic or issue i want to talk about. Sometimes not, and i just try to fill the space. Granted, those entries are not very exciting, but it is good practice for me!
Also, i have been doing more letter writing. i wrote about twelve letters and cards last month. Which, compared to the two or three i got out the year before, is pretty damn extraordinary. i still think it is a nicer way to communicate. There is just something about going to the mail box and getting something that isn't a bill or junk mail. Something that someone has taken the time to handwrite and let you know that you have been on their mind. i know these have been appreciated, because i have seen posts about them on Facebook. i have not yet received a reply to any of my letters, but it is still early in the process and i am not discouraged. Either way, it is not going to keep me from writing!
Well, it is time to get myself ready for class. Can't wait to make the walk to school on this rainy, cloudy morning. And i have to stop by the post office box around the corner and drop off a few letters!
Cheers!
Also, i have been doing more letter writing. i wrote about twelve letters and cards last month. Which, compared to the two or three i got out the year before, is pretty damn extraordinary. i still think it is a nicer way to communicate. There is just something about going to the mail box and getting something that isn't a bill or junk mail. Something that someone has taken the time to handwrite and let you know that you have been on their mind. i know these have been appreciated, because i have seen posts about them on Facebook. i have not yet received a reply to any of my letters, but it is still early in the process and i am not discouraged. Either way, it is not going to keep me from writing!
Well, it is time to get myself ready for class. Can't wait to make the walk to school on this rainy, cloudy morning. And i have to stop by the post office box around the corner and drop off a few letters!
Cheers!
Sunday, February 1, 2015
thought for the day
And now February is here. Where did January go? It seems like just yesterday it was Christmas! Time really does fly the older i get, it seems. And since the older i get, the more i come to accept how precious time truly is...i hate that it goes by so quickly.
This time of year, with the anniversary of Mom's passing coming up, i tend to think more about time...about my time...about how i spend my time. Sometimes i regret the way the i spend my time currently. i know i definitely regret some of the ways i have spent my time in the past, but there is no need to dwell on that now as i cannot change it. But currently, sometimes i think to myself "Why do i spend all this time doing homework, trying to clean the house....daily things like that, when i could be doing something fun?" The truth is, those things are fun to me...at least as an adult...but just fun in a different way. i find an odd sense of accomplishment in those few moments when i feel like i have balanced the different areas of my life. It doesn't happen often, but i relish in it when it does!
Now, on the other hand, i am ready to use my time in some other ways. i am ready for some new discoveries, some new experiences. i have realized lately that i am at a point in life where things are comfortable. There is totally nothing wrong with being comfortable. But, to me, being comfortable all of the time means that nothing is changing. There is nothing new in my life. That is not the depressing statement that it sounds like though. i love my life. i am just ready to add to it. i definitely have my daily, weekly, monthly routines...but it is time to make room for something new to enhance my life. i will not get a second chance at this life so i need to make the most of it.
Cheers
This time of year, with the anniversary of Mom's passing coming up, i tend to think more about time...about my time...about how i spend my time. Sometimes i regret the way the i spend my time currently. i know i definitely regret some of the ways i have spent my time in the past, but there is no need to dwell on that now as i cannot change it. But currently, sometimes i think to myself "Why do i spend all this time doing homework, trying to clean the house....daily things like that, when i could be doing something fun?" The truth is, those things are fun to me...at least as an adult...but just fun in a different way. i find an odd sense of accomplishment in those few moments when i feel like i have balanced the different areas of my life. It doesn't happen often, but i relish in it when it does!
Now, on the other hand, i am ready to use my time in some other ways. i am ready for some new discoveries, some new experiences. i have realized lately that i am at a point in life where things are comfortable. There is totally nothing wrong with being comfortable. But, to me, being comfortable all of the time means that nothing is changing. There is nothing new in my life. That is not the depressing statement that it sounds like though. i love my life. i am just ready to add to it. i definitely have my daily, weekly, monthly routines...but it is time to make room for something new to enhance my life. i will not get a second chance at this life so i need to make the most of it.
Cheers
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