Thought for the day

i'm sick.  Fun fun!  i don't particularly enjoy being sick, but then again, who does?  i will say, though, that this is really the first time i've been sick since i parted ways with PepperMoon, so that's a pretty good accomplishment!  i guess being back in school has kept me more active and that helps.  And, as i said on FB, i'm glad i'm sick this week and not next when school begins again.

When i get sick, i always think of Mom.  i used to get depressed when i was sick because it was one time that i really just wanted my mother.  She was a great nurse when we were sick as children.  She took very good care of us and made us feel better.  It really did make me quite sad when i would get sick and know that she's not here to help me.

But this time, i'm not depressed.  Today, i'm thinking more about Mom's nature and how she dealt with things and am quite admirable of those qualities in her.  There were times during her treatments that she was quite ill, but even then i am sure we only saw a portion of what she felt.  She always took care of everyone else.  And even though she did allow herself to be taken care of at times, that was not her first impulse.  It was only when her body would not physically let her do what she needed to do that she really became a patient to others.

i've always believed that she was in the mindset that just because one is sick, life goes on.  And she went on with her life as best she could for as long as she could.  And, truly, it's the little things that were important to her.  Cooking dinner, baking pound cakes, writing letters, phone calls...letting others know that she was thinking of them and they were important to her...that is what mattered the most.  Making sure her family was provided for and cared for....that was important.  Now, Michael and i don't have children other than our fur baby, Squirt, but i realized today that just because i feel like crap on a stick does not mean that Squirt doesn't still need care.  i've taken him out on walks and catered to his needs despite feeling bad.  And last night, i didn't truly feel like cooking, but i did it anyway.  Nothing complicated, just Mom's vegetable beef soup recipe.  i wanted Michael to have something home cooked when he got home from work so i compromised by making something that took little skill LOL  Today, i've done a little cleaning and a few other things around the house.  i did manage to rest some when i needed to, but i really wanted to keep the household things going as much as possible.

The point is that Mom was not one to let being sick keep her down very often.  It's a good goal for me to strive towards.  That is all.

Cheers