And it is Friday, finally. I cannot say that I am sad to see this week come to an end. It has been very up and down and, at least for me, those have been on the extreme side. Yet, I am determined to find the positive and take that with me into the weekend, next week and further down the road.
Earlier this week, I had an incident at work that totally changed my perspective. I am not going into the details right now because, frankly, I don't want to. I will just say that my spirit has been damaged. Damaged enough that in an instant my goals have changed. I have been questioning everything that I thought I had learned at work over the past 4 years. I have become angry again at having a degree which, besides giving me some good friends and connections, is basically only a piece of paper. The career path I've been working towards at my company does not interest me anymore. It's been a lot to take in.
I realize that all of this sounds bad. And, while in many ways it is, it has also opened my eyes to what else is out there. At least into looking what else is out there in life. I harken back to the things I wanted in my younger days and they seem so out of my reach now. And the thing is they shouldn't be. Yes, I've made mistakes in my journey through life, but I work very hard at whatever I'm doing. I always have. And now I have decided that I want to work hard at something that is going to allow me to enjoy life. Why shouldn't I? I only get one life and it's time I made the most of it in things that matter to me. That's what I've got to explore and discover and I have absolutely every intention of doing that.
Anyhow, I've got a lot of thinking and discovering to do. I am looking forward to what lies ahead. I need to be selfish in ways that matter to me....not like I've been before. It's a difference that's hard for me to explain but it makes sense in my head. Ah, well.
That is all
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