One of the things that I have to learn to do is to accept that it is ok when I cannot do something for one reason or another. And when I say do something, I mean those rare occasions when I get invited to do something, not doing something on my own. I'll talk about doing my own thing in another blog LOL My invitations to do things is growing because I am opening my circle of friends back up, which is nice. Sometimes, though, I have to turn down the invitation because of work or money or something. And it does get depressing when I can't go because I get very hard on myself. That's something that I have to work on. I need to know that this stage of life is just temporary and I will one day be able to enjoy more times with my friends.
My friends that I have known for decades are very understanding about this. They don't hold it against me because I can't go. Or at least they put up a good front, which I appreciate LOL. And the great thing is that my friends do not stop asking me and inviting me simply because I have to refuse. That's very comforting. Any new friends I make, and I am trying to make new friends, I explain up front what my situation is as far as being social beyond the four walls of my house. Most of them are very understanding. I just need people to know where I stand with this right now. It has nothing to do with not wanting to spend time with someone or not wanting to do a specific thing, it's just that at this moment in time, I may not be able to.
This is simply where I am right now. And I am learning to accept it, not because I am settling for the way my financial life is right now, but because I know that this is temporary. I know that my friends care and are understanding. And that means a lot.
That is all.
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