letting go of the cyber social world

i just cannot do it anymore.  it seems like every website i'm on with a profile is just one big disappointment after another.  Each site i'm on is for a different reason, which will not be discussed here as some are very personal and, frankly, none of anyone else's business.

Someone pissed me off tonight on Facebook, saying that my posts were too vague.  Well, ya know what?  They're fucking vague for a reason.  i have family on there that doesn't need to know every aspect of my life.  And i do not have the fucking time to go through hundreds of Facebook friends and pick and choose which ones can see what i write and which ones can't.  i ain't got time for that shit!!

So, i've just got to figure out what to do.  i've taken 90% of my profiles out of my bookmarks, hopefully that will help me cut down on visiting them.  i have deleted a few profiles, and more will follow once i can establish a real social life with real friends.  That's something i just don't have anymore because i've forgotten how to have one.....spending too much time on the computer pretending to be something i'm not.

here i've sat all Labor Day weekend with just the dog for company.  i'm afraid to reach out to anyone because of my huge fear of rejection.  Oh well.  At least i had to the dog.

And the phone apps are gone too.  Hopefully i can handle this self induced world of silence.  We shall see.

Thanks for reading, if you did, which no one does, so i can truly say whatever the fuck i want to on here.

Cheers!