the only time i fear dying in my sleep is when i take a nap
i know this is a strange one, but it's the truth. i cannot really explain why i feel this way. i haven't always been afraid of dying that way, but over the past few years, this feeling has crept into my psyche. Part of it is, even tho i'm tired, when i go to take a nap, i'm very aware of my body slowing down...feeling my heart rate drop as my body relaxes...and it kind of freaks me out. and i have known a few people socially that did actually die while taking a nap. Usually had a heart attack. And ever since my Dad's had heart problems and his doctor told me i needed to be careful, i've been very paranoid about it.
Still, this doesn't keep me from taking naps...i just don't always wake up as refreshed as i'd like to....oh well
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
non smoking day 23
today is my 23rd day without smoking and i have to admit that i'm pretty proud of myself so far. it hasn't been as difficult as i thought it would be in a lot of ways. Not smoking at work was probably my biggest concern, but so far, it has not been a problem. Also, not smoking first thing in the morning has been very different for me, but still has not been unmanageable.
The things that are bothering me now are physical. i'm not sure if it's all part of withdrawal, or just partly due to withdrawal. i'm very sluggish lately and get tired very easily. But, if i take a short nap, i feel fine and refreshed for awhile. And, even tho my coughing has all but stopped, my breathing isn't great. i feel a heavy weight on my chest. i realize that my lungs have a lot of reconstructing to do, so that might be some of it.
And headaches. i've been having very very bad headaches in the past few weeks. Piercing headaches that feel like someone is taking an ice pick to my forhead. They feel almost like brain freeze. They don't last too too long, but long enough. i've had these headaches before, about 5 years ago, but they only lasted a week and then stopped until recently. i know that my brain is dealing with no nicotine, so that's a part of it. But, if they persist, i will see a dr about them.
So, we shall see how it goes. i admit that it is very nice to have more money. i have been treating myself to a few things...trip to the antiques mall and to Replacements, Ltd. Even the money i've spent at both of those places is far less than the total i normally would've spent on cigarettes. Yippee! i'll update on this situation again soon!
Cheers!
The things that are bothering me now are physical. i'm not sure if it's all part of withdrawal, or just partly due to withdrawal. i'm very sluggish lately and get tired very easily. But, if i take a short nap, i feel fine and refreshed for awhile. And, even tho my coughing has all but stopped, my breathing isn't great. i feel a heavy weight on my chest. i realize that my lungs have a lot of reconstructing to do, so that might be some of it.
And headaches. i've been having very very bad headaches in the past few weeks. Piercing headaches that feel like someone is taking an ice pick to my forhead. They feel almost like brain freeze. They don't last too too long, but long enough. i've had these headaches before, about 5 years ago, but they only lasted a week and then stopped until recently. i know that my brain is dealing with no nicotine, so that's a part of it. But, if they persist, i will see a dr about them.
So, we shall see how it goes. i admit that it is very nice to have more money. i have been treating myself to a few things...trip to the antiques mall and to Replacements, Ltd. Even the money i've spent at both of those places is far less than the total i normally would've spent on cigarettes. Yippee! i'll update on this situation again soon!
Cheers!
recipe of the week - Zucchini Santa Fe
i made this for myself a few weeks ago and really liked it! Zucchini is one of those vegetables that i'm growing to really enjoy, but they've never been on the top of my list. Recipes like this are helping to change that! And this one is fairly healthy! Enjoy!
3 cups sliced zucchini
1/2 cup chopped onion
1 tbs cooking oil
1 4oz can of chopped green chilies, drained
1 medium tomato, chopped
1/2 tsp salt
1/4 tsp pepper
1/4 tsp garlic powder
1/2 cup shredded cheddar or Monterey Jack cheese
In a large skillet, saute the zucchini and onion in oil for 3-4 minutes or until crisp-tender. Add chilies, tomato, salt, pepper and garlic powder. Cook and stir for 3-4 minutes. Spoon into a serving bowl and sprinkle with cheese. Yields 6 servings.
When i prepared this, i used the Mexican blend shredded cheese, but any cheese you like will work fine!
3 cups sliced zucchini
1/2 cup chopped onion
1 tbs cooking oil
1 4oz can of chopped green chilies, drained
1 medium tomato, chopped
1/2 tsp salt
1/4 tsp pepper
1/4 tsp garlic powder
1/2 cup shredded cheddar or Monterey Jack cheese
In a large skillet, saute the zucchini and onion in oil for 3-4 minutes or until crisp-tender. Add chilies, tomato, salt, pepper and garlic powder. Cook and stir for 3-4 minutes. Spoon into a serving bowl and sprinkle with cheese. Yields 6 servings.
When i prepared this, i used the Mexican blend shredded cheese, but any cheese you like will work fine!
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
recipe of the week - Sour Cream Banana Bread
i've never been a huge fan of bananas, but the older i get the more i enjoy them. And the fact that they're good for you helps! This recipe came from my Grandmother. She made it a lot and did actually enjoy this banana recipe growing up. i ran across it recently in an old email from my sister in law, Heidi, and decided to try it out. It was pretty good and i'll definitely make it again! Enjoy!
Sour Cream Banana Bread
1 2/3 cups plain flour
1 tsp soda
1/2 tsp salt
1 cup sugar
1/2 cup margarine
2 eggs
1 tsp vanilla
1 1/4 cups mashed bananas
1/2 cup chopped nuts
1/2 cup sour cream
Cream margarine and sugar. Add eggs, vanilla, bananas, nuts and sour cream. Add flour, salt and soda. Blend well. Bake at 350 for 1 hour or until bread tests done.
i used two smallish loaf pans for this and since each oven is different, i only baked this for 45 min and it still got a nice crust on it!
Sour Cream Banana Bread
1 2/3 cups plain flour
1 tsp soda
1/2 tsp salt
1 cup sugar
1/2 cup margarine
2 eggs
1 tsp vanilla
1 1/4 cups mashed bananas
1/2 cup chopped nuts
1/2 cup sour cream
Cream margarine and sugar. Add eggs, vanilla, bananas, nuts and sour cream. Add flour, salt and soda. Blend well. Bake at 350 for 1 hour or until bread tests done.
i used two smallish loaf pans for this and since each oven is different, i only baked this for 45 min and it still got a nice crust on it!
Friday, January 10, 2014
2014 so far
well, so far 2014 is off to an interesting and different start than i had anticipated. Not necessarily bad, just different.
For New Year's Eve, instead of having our normal gathering of friends at the house, we decided to just stay in and do nothing. We hadn't had anyone over in months, really, so in my mind, any invites to people at NYE might have seemed very out of the blue. And also, with the holidays being so condensed this year at work because Thanksgiving fell so late, i really didn't have the strength to try and pull something together. We were going to go out on New Year's night, but that fell through as well. And that's ok because we saved money by staying in again.
And then i decide to take a week off of work to just get myself together and recover from the holiday season. i'd really wanted to get a good start on some projects here at the house. And then i get sick. So, none of those have gotten done. i really hate that i've spent my time off being sick, but i suppose it could be worse. At least i'm not sick at work. That would really suck.
However, since i've wanted to stop smoking and promised Michael that i would, i did take this time of being sick as a great opportunity to start. 5 days so far without a cigarette. Going through withdrawal can be really hard at times, but if that's what i have to go through to get it done then so be it! If i can conquer this, i'm in pretty decent shape!
So, even though things have not started off as hoped and planned, i'm not too disappointed haha We'll see how it goes and how the rest of January progresses. Woohoo!
Cheers!
For New Year's Eve, instead of having our normal gathering of friends at the house, we decided to just stay in and do nothing. We hadn't had anyone over in months, really, so in my mind, any invites to people at NYE might have seemed very out of the blue. And also, with the holidays being so condensed this year at work because Thanksgiving fell so late, i really didn't have the strength to try and pull something together. We were going to go out on New Year's night, but that fell through as well. And that's ok because we saved money by staying in again.
And then i decide to take a week off of work to just get myself together and recover from the holiday season. i'd really wanted to get a good start on some projects here at the house. And then i get sick. So, none of those have gotten done. i really hate that i've spent my time off being sick, but i suppose it could be worse. At least i'm not sick at work. That would really suck.
However, since i've wanted to stop smoking and promised Michael that i would, i did take this time of being sick as a great opportunity to start. 5 days so far without a cigarette. Going through withdrawal can be really hard at times, but if that's what i have to go through to get it done then so be it! If i can conquer this, i'm in pretty decent shape!
So, even though things have not started off as hoped and planned, i'm not too disappointed haha We'll see how it goes and how the rest of January progresses. Woohoo!
Cheers!
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
2014
i'm very much looking forward to 2014. 2013 wasn't too terribly bad, but it wasn't what i'd hoped it would be. i have a lot of changes and goals for this coming year, so we'll see how that goes.
The most important thing that i want to work on this year is following through with things. i have a bad tendency to either flake out on things and people or just not finish things or see them through. Working on this will most definitely help me to achieve my goals in life this year. i'm not going to list my goals just yet, as it's still pretty early in the year and i don't want to put too much pressure on myself and cave in to my old habits.
But, i hope that everyone has a wonderful year this year and i look forward to seeing many of you in the months to come!
Cheers!
The most important thing that i want to work on this year is following through with things. i have a bad tendency to either flake out on things and people or just not finish things or see them through. Working on this will most definitely help me to achieve my goals in life this year. i'm not going to list my goals just yet, as it's still pretty early in the year and i don't want to put too much pressure on myself and cave in to my old habits.
But, i hope that everyone has a wonderful year this year and i look forward to seeing many of you in the months to come!
Cheers!
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