i hate being depressed....not that anyone particularly enjoys it haha. Today's better than yesterday at least. Winter weather always throws me off and even tho this last storm was not nearly as bad as it could've been, it still stressed me out and took me down that road into feeling bad. Ah, well.
i think i need to learn some techniques to cope with this. Sometimes it only takes one small thing to get me depressed. Sometimes it's big things. i don't always know it's going to happen, but sometimes i can see the triggers and at least try to get myself out of the situation. Easier said than done most times though.
i know that part of it is the patterns i get myself into. i had plans for this week. Things i wanted to do to fill my time and get out of the routine. Through no one's fault but my own, i fall back into doing the same things every night and that weighs down on my spirit. One of the bad parts about not really having any kind of social circle is that i get more and more isolated. And then i revert to doing what's most comfortable and familiar at the expense of change and improvement.
Michael works tonight and i have no plans. As per usual, i will probably end up sitting in front of the computer in an attempt to reach out to people i will never really meet. Who knows, maybe i'll watch a movie instead.
We shall see
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