Friday, March 28, 2014

thought for the day

Social anxiety can be very tiring, just like any other kind of anxiety and/or depression.  The thing that gets me about it is that i don't always know when it's going to happen and to what extent it happens.  Sometimes, i can cope with it, other times i cannot.  Oh well.  Last weekend, we went out of town with some friends up to the mountains.  There were a few people there that i did not know and i was worried beforehand about having an attack.  Luckily, i did not have one and we all had a great time, other than getting stung by a wasp....good times lol  But last night, Michael and i had dinner with a friend and i started to get very withdrawn the longer that the dinner went on.  As the dinner conversation progressed, i started realizing that i did not have much to contribute to the topics at hand and really didn't have any interesting topics of my own to talk about, so i started to get very introverted in my head.  It took almost all of my energy to keep myself focused and engaged, even though i was not participating.  i really did have a nice time at dinner, but once it was over, i was exhausted.

i did get a little depressed last night about it, but nothing beyond my control.  Oh well, that's life.

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