Whenever i take Squirt out for a walk, which is 4 or 5 times a day, i have noticed that is one time when my brain seems to go into memory overdrive. i don't know what it is about the act of walking outside that just takes me down memory lane, but it does...every time. Sometimes good memories, sometimes bad...but you can't always pick and choose which memories pop into your head! That would be way too convenient.
Today on our morning walk, as my mind was invaded with thoughts of days past, i stopped to think about when people say "if i had it to all over again, i wouldn't change a thing" i know sometimes i have said that, because of the things in my life today....Michael, college, Squirt. i am suppose to be where i am today and saying that makes me feel better about the poor choices i have made along the way. And then i started wondering that if i am where i am destined to be today, who is to say that i would not have ended up here had i chosen a different path?
i am a full believer that things happen for a reason....mainly to teach us lessons in life. Whether or not we learn from them is our own individual problem. i can honestly say that i have learned from some of mine more than others. But, if i am where i am destined to be at this point in my life and nothing would change that, then hell yes i would definitely do some things differently! i am not about to go into a long laundry list of all of the things i would do differently because that would take way too long LOL But i would certainly take more care not to make the same mistakes, at least not all of them.
So, i know i need to go back and look at what has gotten me here, the good and the bad, and take a good long look at them. Keep track of the things i took away from each situation and keep them constant in my life today so that i am the person i want to be. That is the only way i will learn from them. Can i change the past? no. Would i change the past? yes!
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