I did not sleep well last night....at all. It was a very restless sleep. I just could not get settled down. My brain seemed to take off into a bizarre world of dreams every time I actually fell asleep. Not nightmares, just weird dreams. Enough to wake me up and make me go "what was that?". I finally got myself up about 5:15. I got the coffee brewing and started the dishwasher. At least I got something productive done so far today, if nothing else LOL Anyway, once I get my coffee and sit down at the computer, things don't necessarily get any more restful.
When you wake up to more reminders of all the bad in the world, it is hard to motivate oneself to anything. It is hard to try and maintain a smile on one's face. But I am determined to find something positive in the global abominations that are thrown at me this morning. I have absolutely no idea what that is going to be, but dammit I am going to find it. It is the only...and I mean only...way I will be able to get through my day with some semblance of sanity.
There is a part of me that just wants to crawl back into bed and pull the covers up over me. As much as I would like that, it's not going to happen. I'm going to have to get dressed, go to work and deal with many people who need care beyond my capabilities...but that's for another blog. I will smile through it all in an attempt to make their day somewhat better, and hopefully mine. But I will find at least one thing that will truly make me better. That one thing that will make me smile at the core of my spirit and really show on my face. No clue what that's going to be, but I am going to find it today. For everyone's sake LOL
That is all
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