I want to make a more concentrated effort to find a church home this year. It was on my list last year but like so many things on that list, it never got done. I'm ok with that but I would still like to find some place to worship. I miss having that kind of community in my life and, honestly, I am tired of letting myself stand in the way of finding a church home. I can come up with all kinds of excuses not to go. Some legitimate, some not. That's human nature though. At least that is my human nature LOL As much as I long for that sense of community, I often let my social anxiety stand in the way. The older I get, the harder it seems to be for me to meet people or feel comfortable in a new setting like that. I think that I just need to get over that and go. It all has to start somewhere, right?
I have a church in mind that is at the top of my list. I feel some apprehension about it because it is not the denomination that I grew up with. I don't really think that it matters in the end. As Dolly Parton's character says in Steel Magnolias "God doesn't mind where you go to church as long as you show up." or something akin to that! But I do feel like, in the back of my mind, that the people who were such an important part of my church upbringing would be disappointed in my switching. I know it's silly but that is where my mind goes. I need to stop justifying reasons not to go and make myself do it. I know that once I get over this first hurdle, I will feel much better about things. So, that is my plan. Hopefully I can make it happen sooner or later.
It will be good for me.
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