The Doctor's Appointment

 

This morning, I have a doctor's appointment.  It is the first appointment I have had with her in over one year. In fact, it has been almost a year and a half since I have seen Dr. Hernandez.  I do not exactly mind going to the doctor because I really like my doctor.  But I can go ahead and tell you that she is not going to be happy with my weight.  It's been a rough year in many ways and, as a result, I weigh significantly more than I did the last time she saw me.  Well, it is something that I am working on.  I might have just seriously started working on it again after a few years, but at least I am trying and can see some results.  But I know she is going to bring it up, so I must prepare myself. 

I have to go in every so often because she won't renew several of my prescriptions without an office visit.  I understand that.  I know I'm going to have to have a blood panel done, so only black coffee for me this morning.  No doubt I will be quite hungry once all is said and done. I am already prepared for the fact that my levels are not going to be very good.  Like I said, it has been a rough year and my diet has not been good.  Well, that depends on your definition of good.  The food has actually been great just not great for me.  However, I am working on that too.  Portion control is extremely helpful and also, which may sound silly, actually taking the time to chew my food plays a key role. I am bad about just inhaling whatever is on my plate. Chewing really makes me feel full faster and that's pretty good as don't eat as much.  I have not gone back for seconds all week.  Yay me!!

So, we shall see how it goes.  I know it won't be as good as she would like, but I hope my health is salvageable. I can only go up from here and I am honestly making that effort.  I have some areas that I need to work on, and I look forward to the challenge.  What it really comes down to is not letting my grief for our society overcome me.  Sometimes it can be very hard to want to make positive, healthy changes in the midst of all of this chaos.  I do not usually blame someone or something else for my state of mind, but I feel it is justified right now.  So ends today's installment of escapades in adulting. Wish me luck!